Some thoughts

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Its 1:04pm, I'm in my last year of highschool in America. Covid has made my last year weird and hard in a way....

My classes for the first semester are:

Football IV although im just a manager
Algebra 2 which I should have taken last year
Art 2 Sculpture I didn't have to take it but I love art
Environmental Science but I wanted Astronomy
Psychology a class they gave me to fill in my lunch period
English IV but i wanted creative writing I'm terrible at english, can never pay attention
Economics a class I'm only taking for a semester and then government
And lastly Counseling and Mental Health

My schedule looks like this

Even Days:
Football IV
Algebra 2
Environmental Science
English IV
Counseling and Mental Health

Odd Days:
Football IV
Art 2 Sculpture
Psychology
Economics
Counseling and Mental Health

My school is weird but give us a steady schedule, every other day we switch between even and odd days. Today is an Odd Day, I'm currently in Psychology although at the time of writing this which is now 1:16 pm my class ends in 9 minutes.

Because of Covid we get dismissed from classes in a certain order, my school has 4 floors but they call them like this:

Lower Level - First Floor - Second Floor - Third Floor

Although I do kinda get It, the office is on the first floor and the lower level is only half a floor with all the time arts and sports and cafeteria on it.

But yes dismissal, the first bell is the even number classes on the lower level and third floor, second bell is odd number classes on the lower level and third floor, third bell is even number classes on the First and Second floor, and then lastly is odd number classes on the first and second floor.

I bring this up because in psychology I'm on the second floor in an odd number classroom which is last dismissal which makes me late to my next class which is on the third floor, and you must be wondering how does that make you late, well they are making us only go one direction, so in side hallways you must use the side stairs, one is to go up and the other Is to go down, I must go down, then head to the middle of the school where the central stairs are and go up 2 levels to go to my class which is a lot of stairs......

It is now 1:47 pm, I'm in economics just finished CNN 10 but prior to that I was late to class and talking to my psychology teacher, you see there's this person at school who is saying I was talking shit about, I know none of you know me but I'm not one to say that another person is a whore and such. I believe in the whole treat others how you want to be treated, I've told them my opinion about them but its just an option and I've said it to their face so its not talking shit. But moving on before I get onto a tangent....

It is now 2:26pm and I just finished my Economics assignment with my partner, really nice guy who is fun to be around, minor crush but that's the extent of that.









Since they are next to me I don't want them reading that top part so excuse the amount of empty space.... But yeah he's a great guy who is also in my Algebra 2 class. But no more tangent, I've made this story to put my thoughts and feelings somewhere because well I'm not good at expressing myself.... Forgive me for being all over the place, this I just how I think, I think how I talk and I talk how I think, I've been waiting all day for the guy I'm talking to to respond to my messages, I always tell him if I'm bothering him to let me know but he always brushes it off and says he's fine.... But I don't feel like he's fine, I feel like I'm just an annoying waste of space only there to be a Random bystander...... I got interrupted by my partner popping his back, we had a small interaction and laughed a bit, friendship points..... Anyways I don't feel much different from a background character really, kinda just here at this point, I'm also not good with expressing myself which I think I've typed already... Him giggling at his phone next to me makes me smile a bit, I guess happiness is contagious in a sense. I could probably narrate what just occurred..

As they type on their device they hear the flutter of a melody near by, taking an inspection of there surroundings they notice the brunette to the side of them, whimsical laughter sprouts from their lips as they look upon the screen in their hand. They knew in this moment as they smile at this interaction their neighbor had with himself that they were adorable and wonder if these thoughts they are writing down for many people to read if they are creepy and if other people think this way...

Moving on.......

It is currently 2:42 pm and the teacher has the song Here without you by 3 doors down playing. I love that song along with many others from the time period, much better then today's music I think personally....

Last random thought:

You gaze down a corridor and wonder to yourself if this is what you truly believe you should be doing, tears gather in your eyes as you walk further into the darkness that seems to have started to have dripping come from it, another step and you've landed in a puddle now knowing what the noise was indicating. Your last chance to turn around still present as your leg slowly sinks into the pool of water that is no longer a puddle. Its comforting in a way, the darkness and the drops of black that appears from above. Like a longing for silence and peace or no its only one.

So I leave you with some questions.. Which path would you take?

Lit corridor with a clean path to nothing.

Dark corridor with endless paths of the unknown filled with silence or peace.

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