Forever(Tododeku)

I had to

A/N: Okay, I'm on a roll. I'm actually having a really good day, and I'm excited, even though I shouldn't be for what I'm about to write:/ Anywho, some author wisdom to make your day better: Remember that everything you do and say changes the world, even just in a tiny way, so make sure you make it a good change. That's enough from me, onto the story!

Midoriya's POV: 

Shoto went to the bathroom and changed into jeans, a grey hoodie, and a puffy black jacket, which he left unzipped, and put on white vans. I left his room and went to mine to change. I put on a yellow jumper that was too big for me, black jeans, and my red hightops. I brushed my teeth and hair and sent Shoto a text saying I'd be ready in a few minutes.  

I saw him sitting on the couch in the common room, "ready?" I asked. I wish I could tell you what it felt like to be with him, it was as if there was something in between us, like an unspoken tension that I didn't dare mention, although I couldn't help but overthink it. I told myself over and over to stop overthinking it and to trust that he was telling the truth, we were in a relationship, I had to trust him. I had to. 

We walked to the park and sat on a bench and talked for about an hour. "I'm just glad we have school off for the rest of this week because of dorms." Shoto nodded. God the air is so dense, I can't stand it anymore. It felt so foreign, why didn't we feel right? What the hell is going on, did I not love him anymore? No, that's insane, right? I just wanted this to be over. I wanted to be alone, to think this over. How could I tell him that though? My brain was spiraling as I tried to look happy, it was only now that I realized I'm actually miserable. I held back my tears as best I could, but I couldn't help it, I couldn't stand this. "I have to go!" 

Todoroki's POV:

"I have to go," Izuku stormed off in tears. Leaving me miserable on this stupid bench in the stupid cold winter air. "Izuku!" I called after him but he was running fastly towards the end of the street. I decided not to go after him, what would I even say, 'hey Izuku, I've been lying to you since we met and smashing your heart into a million pieces every second we hang out, my life is shit and my dad beats me' I couldn't bear to see him cry, and all because of me. I got up and rushed to the bathroom at the park. I sat in one of the stalls and the tears started rolling down my face, I was sobbing, more then I think I've ever cried before. God, why did my head hurt so much, and fuck, my stomach? My whole body ached, why do I have to be such a piece of shit. 

After about 20 minutes I concealed my sobs, still feeling like falling apart, but I splashed my face with water from the sink, my hands trembling. It wasn't even that I lied about what was happening, it felt, me and him, it felt wrong. Did we really belong together? If we did then why did it feel like all he wanted to do was leave, why did I feel the same? I tried not to cry again, my eyes were already puffy, and suddenly all the bruises and scars that Endeavors given me were throbbing in pain and guilt. 

"Todoroki! What the hell happened!? Deku just ran into his room crying and he locked the door and won't come out! I swear to- Oh my god, you look awful, have you been crying too?" Uraraka yelled when I ran into the dorm building. I brushed passed her, almost all of the class was gathered in the common room, even Bakugo was there. "Uraraka! You don't tell people that!" Ashido scolded. I bolted up to Izu's room. "Izu, babe, it's me. W-we have to talk. Now." 

A/N: Sorry this is another short chapter here, and I apologize for the cliffhanger:) That's all.