Why me?

Up and out

Error's eyes groggily open up as the monochromatic color of his room came into view as well as his nerves waking up to the sensation of fabric—Even numbness of falling asleep in his arm.He manages to lift his head up slightly from his drool-stained pillow,rubbing his eyes–trying to comprehend reality.

He shifted around in his bed slightly,slowly managing to sit himself upright from the bed,after a few more attempts of rubbing sleep from his eyes,he takes a moment to glance around his room,it was still dark but not dark enough as he could still see the silhouette of his room.He grabs his phone to check the time only to be briefly blinded by the light.

Slowly adjusting his eyes,he could make out that it was 4:30 in the morning,a displeasured groan escaped his mouth as he tossed his phone onto his bed and collapsed back into the bed,he could only wonder what woke him up—what was he dreaming about? Something about teddy bears,dresses....and maybe Fresh? The glitch had been thinking about him so much it wouldn't be a surprise if he did end up in his dreams.

As he stared up into the ceiling as he had done many times in the past,it is only now that he realized how hungry he was—he didn't mind the idea of having an early breakfast.

Kicking his sheets off,he rolls himself off the bed before standing upright and fixing up his tank top,taking the time to shake out the numbness in his bones as well as letting a few pop,a soft sigh of relief escapes his nose as he does this before making his way to his door.It doesn't take long for him to get to the kitchen,the darkness doesn't bother him since he knows the house layout like the back of his hands,however he could see the light was on in the kitchen,he cautiously peeks around the through the door.

On the kitchen table was paper skewed across it with various symbols and diagrams scribbled onto them along with pens and calculators as well,Error's mom was tapping away in her laptop with a fresh cup of coffee as the laptop's light reflected off of the mug.It doesn't take long for her to notice her son as she greets him with a tired but warm smile.

"Buenos días, You're up early" she spoke with a soft voice before taking a sip from her cup.

Error awkwardly yawns as he makes his way to the cupboard," Yeah—kinda felt a bit hungry "

"Of course you would,you need some meat on those bones" she adds with a slight smile.

" Mom " he couldn't help but roll his eyes as he shuffled the contents of the cupboard,soon finding his desired cereal— ah pirate munch,a cult classic of cereals.

She couldn't help but giggle even if it was noticeable how exhausted she was,"I know I know but you can't blame me for it"

He could only reply with a scoff,it was a low hanging fruit and it just shows how desperate skeleton monsters are for fresh new jokes,as he pours in his cereal,the quietness of the early morning tunes into his skull,the sound of birds faintly chirping in their nest as the coffee makers clicks and rolls its gears around mindlessly,along with the shutters on the window shaking slightly from the wind and the clicking taps of his mom's chunky keyboard.

His minds wanders back to his mom,he turns his head slightly to catch a glimpse of her staring into her digital graphs and whatnots,Error could help but consider his thought—it was probably crazy for him to do it but this was probably no better time than now despite how much his anxiety was screaming at him,his mind was less filtered by the thought that he did even recognize that he said it.

" Hey mom,I need you tell you something "

Disregarding his cereal for a moment,he turns to face his parent who in return glances up to him in a almost suspicious curiosity as her eyebrows were more knitted together.Error felt his guts twisting into knots as his soul pounded against his chest once his attention was on him.

"Si?" She replies in an odd skeptical tone.

His rib cage expanded to try and hold off the urge to have a panic attack before exhaling air out of him,his hands fidgeted frantically as his tired mind attempted to form words.

" Mom.. " He breathes out," I think I'm gay "

Error wasn't sure if it was exhaustion kicking in or the relief and fear of letting something so heavy like that off his chest was causing him to tear up,he couldn't really control the floodgates that slowly pours out from his eyes as he await his mom's response.She must've noticed him crying as she shifts off from her seat and reaches towards her own son,gently cupping his cheeks as she wiped away his tears.

"My dear sweet bello" she said in her softest voice,"I'm so proud of you for discovering who you are"

Error looks up to her,sniffling as few tears continue to roll down his cheeks," so you're not....mad at me? "

" Mad at you?" She repeats in utter shock,"if I was mad—or anything negative at you for liking boys,well I would be a disgrace as a parent!"

She then pulls him into a hug,crushing his bones a bit too much but that didn't stop him from completely sobbing into his mum's shoulder after she told him this:

"You are my son," She spoke,carefully stroking the back of his skull,"I will love and support you no matter what"

His hands dig into her clothes as the heavy weight in his soul felt more lighter now—he was glad, no ,overjoyed by this even if he couldn't fully communicate words right now but the feeling he had was relief— relief that he had people who supported him and care for him,even after all this time.Even if he was hiding his face,that didn't stop a quivering smile to make its way onto his face.

As his voice was barely a whisper,it didn't stop him from speaking from the deepest part of his soul," I love you mom "

"I love you too bello" she replies,squeezing him tightly in reassurance.

The two stay like that for a brief moment in silence because no amount of words could describe how loved Error was,that is until a buzzing of phone rattle against the table causing the two to pull away.She glanced at the phone and mutter something in her tongue before turning her attention back to her son.

She smiled at him,"I gotta take this"

" Uh—Yeah,sure I'll be just eating my cereal " Error managed to blurt out,fumbling over his words.

Finally grabbing his forgotten cereal before glancing back at his mum,talking away on her phone, deciding that it was best that he returned back to his room for the time being and just let things settle down.By the time he got to his room the morning light was beginning to seep in a bit more,revealing more blue hues inside his room,it doesn't take much for him to crash back onto his bed with his breakfast in his lap though when he took a bite from it he soon took note of how soggy it was—oh well,he's not gonna waste good now.

As he ate,Error couldn't help but feel a little bit proud of himself for coming out—granted it may have overreacted a bit about possible scenarios,not like he should read people's minds but he should've at least known how supportive and caring his mum actually was.

It was a big step forward and now for the next step but he'll do it when he's ready.