✓ fangs || yang jungwon

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(an: the story is ending😧 slowly but surely)
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jungwon's p.o.v

"Jungwon..?" Her voice sounded like a whisper to me as my mind was too clouded with bloody red thoughts.

Stop, Stop, Stop, Stop Jungwon. Don't. You can't.
I breathed in deeply, trying to keep my composure.

I didn't answer her.
Eunji swallowed, as she was trying to shift her weight to her other hand as it was starting to get uncomfortable in the small cave. Accidentally touching my hand, she flinched.

"Are you..okay?"
She would reach out her hand to touch me, but I quickly backed away, turning away from her.

That's when I realized.

"It's..." I started, my voice breaking as I buried my face in my hands, "It's never going to change."

I really thought I could overcome it.
This devilish and monstrous side of me.

I thought I could be normal.
Like you and everyone else.

I was always going to be a beast. A villain.
No matter how hard I tried to fight it.

A bitter smile made its way up to my lips.
How foolish of me.

"What do you mean? Jungwon-"

Before she could continue, I quickly passed her the navigational device after errorlessly writing down the coordinates of where we were staying at.
I had to act fast.

"Wait for the rain to stop. Follow the instructions. And don't...don't turn back." My voice broke and I felt my throat burn again.
Oh no.

I tried to look into her eyes. But my gaze would constantly shift down to the blood that was dripping down her arm.
"But Jungwon, I can't-" She started again, when I turned around. Right, she was injured.

But I had to leave now before it was too late.

Pulling me back, Eunji suddenly put both her hands on each side of my face, forcing me to look at her.

"Jungwon." She spoke, the blood on her hand was dry, "Snap out of it! You managed to fight the urge the last time too. You can-"

"That was different!" I blurted out, my voice sounding strange all of a sudden. Eunji must have noticed it too.

Because I saw it.
I saw how her pupils shook in fear after my sudden outburst.

"You...You didn't have an open wound back then...this is-It's-" I breathed in deeply, trying to get the gory images out of my head, "It's different, Eunji. I-I can't...Right now..I'm-."

Eunji's eyes watered, "Jungwon."

"I'm scared that I will completely turn into a monster." I spoke breathlessly, my voice trailing off, "While you are watching."

"You are not a monster!" She shook her head, as she put her hands on my shoulders to stop me from leaving, "Stop calling yourself that!"

"I am one." I tried to break free from her grip, "If only you knew about what kind of thoughts I'm having right now, you wouldn't say that."