Stay With Me (GajeelXReader)

Chapter 4

AN: Hey guys! I got a new computer so I will be able to update more since my dog decided to break my old laptop! I also don't know where I'm going with this...so I'm not too sure if I want to continue it. 

Elaines pov: 

My mind kept wondering back to the child. I wanted to know what the hell I was going to do with her. I mean I couldn't keep a child, but its not like I can just abandons her. 

I could barely care of myself let alone raise a child...Maybe I could leave her here with Gramps, and that would give me reason to come visit. 

'Visit? Really Elaine...Get your shit together,' I thought to myself. 

I could just take her with me, but what would Master say if I came back with a child? Honestly I think he would be overjoyed that I showed any emotion other than anger. 

"I think caring for a kid would be good for you," Jay said. 

I hadn't even noticed him next to me. I tilted my head in confusion. 

"What makes you think that?" I asked. 

It was certainly a interesting view point that he had, but I feel like Master would say the same thing. I have emotions, but I just don't see the point in showing them. 

"Laine, you don't open up to anyone...No one knows what you are thinking and it scares them. I have never seen you smile before today," Jay said. 

I guess he was right...I have always had a chip on my shoulder that I never allowed anyone to see me this happy before. 

"I don't know...I'm always gone for long periods of time. That's not a life a child should have," I said. 

"But it's the life you know," Jay said. 

I sighed. 

"That's the point...I had no one to turn too. No one to share my sorrow with. I don't think that makes me fit to care for a child," I said. 

Jay didn't say anything. We simply walked in silence. 

"Elaine, do you know what your problem is?" Jay spoke up. 

Well, this was going to be interesting. 

"Enlighten me," I said. 

"You think that the whole world is against you. That now you are alone, but you aren't alone. We all love and care you for at the guild. You also have Fairytail as well. We don't compare you to him...We only want what's best for you, but you refuse to see that," he said. 

That hit like a ton of bricks. He was right about all of it. I knew that I wasn't alone anymore, but I can't help but feel like they will all leave me. 

Sometimes I do feel like I am nothing outside of my brother. I kept myself in his shadow for so long it's hard to get out. 

"You think that I don't know that, but I do...I kept myself in his shadow for so long because it gives me someone to blame other than myself," I said. 

I wanted to be alone. I knew that blaming my family was more of a safety net for me. I didn't want to think anymore.  

I ran into the woods. I stopped as soon as I came into this meadow. 

"Surprised to see you here," A familiar voice spoke. 

I turned to see Gajeel standing there. Why do I keep running into him?

"Are you now? I find it funny how I keep running into you Mr. Redfox," I said. 

I swear I saw him blush, but I could be just seeing things. 

"Well, maybe you just want to get into my pants," he said. 

I mean he might not be wrong. Gajeel was a attractive man, but I feel its more than that. 

"Haha, I could say the same thing Gajeel," I said smiling. 

He smirked. 

"Don't take this the wrong way Redfox, but I feel like I could tell you anything. I feel...safe when you are around," I said. 

This time I knew I saw him blush!  He looked away from me so fast, but I grabbed his face. Next thing I knew I crashed my lips into his. 

Its like I needed him to breathe. It was feeling that I have never felt before. I pushed myself off him to breathe. 

"I'm sorry...I don't know what came over me...I'm gonna go!" I yelled and booked it to the inn. 

I have no idea what the hell just happened. Like I couldn't stop myself from kissing him.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" Jay asked. 

I jumped in surprise. 

"I...ii..k..kis..kissed g...gajeel," I stuttered. 

'Get it together woman!' I mentally yelled. 

Jay just stood there in shock. I mean I don't blame him because I never do things like this. I didn't wait for him to say anything, and I ran to the bathroom to shower. 

'God...I hope its not awkward tomorrow,' I thought. 

I couldn't even sleep. I literally just stared at the ceiling. Asami was up and ready for breakfast. I have no idea how the holy fuck I was going to face Gajeel today. 

'I hope its not weird...I mean he didn't even chase after me so I guess we are in the clear...I can do this,' I said. 

Asami was full of energy, and I couldn't handle that. It was too damn early for her to have that much energy, but then again it was probably the first time in awhile when she got this good of sleep. 

"Elaine are you gonna come back soon?" Asami asked. 

"I shouldn't be gone too long. Maybe a week at most, but you will have everyone at Fairy Tail to keep you company," I said. 

"Okay, but be safe okay?" she said. 

I smiled. 

"I always am...Don't worry you won't be alone anymore," I said. 

She flashed me a smile, and hugged me. There was a soft knock at the door. 

"Come in," I said. 

The door slowly opened to reveal Lucy. I didn't know she was coming to pick up Asami. 

"Good morning  Elaine, Master asked me to pick up Asami," She said. 

She looked dead tired, and I didn't blame her. Hell, I was still trying to process that I didn't sleep and was currently dying.  

"Thanks Lucy, she had like a couple pieces of toast. We don't have much to eat here, and fyi she is a ball of energy," I said. 

Lucy nodded, and Asami ran over to her and clung to her leg. 

"Bye Elaine!" Asami yelled. 

I waved and turned around to start getting dressed. I noticed that Jay had packed some clothes for me so I quickly changed. 

"Lets go Elaine or else we are gonna be late," Jay said. I nodded. 

Please let this job go by fast...I just want to get away and clear my mind. 

I decided to get lost in my thoughts so I didn't have to deal with reality. However it was sadly short lived. 

"Let's go scatter brain," Jay said pushing me forward.  

I nodded and walked forward. I couldn't help but notice that Gajeel wasn't here yet and it was almost time to leave. 

'Why am I even worried?' I asked myself. 

"Elaine!" I heard someone call my name. 

I tuned around to be face to face with Gajeel. I felt someone bump into causing me to move forward and once again my lips connected with Gajeels. 

It took me a moment to process and I pushed him away blushing feverishly. 

'WHAT THE FUCK,' I yelled internally.