rant book

depression & anxiety

so i'm super outspoken about my depression and anxiety. i talk about it and me going to therapy openly bc it's not something i want to be afraid of or make other feel afraid of. I have had a baseline of anxiety since i can remember. because i was born with SPD, i am prone to depression and anxiety. since elementary school started, my anxiety has been higher than it should be, my mom noted that quickly.

I don't have any trauma that caused my depression nor anxiety. sure i have some traumatic experiences that makes both worse, but neither were caused my anything. that does not make my depression or anxiety invalid or unreal or fake. both affect me be very much, and just because i have it for no apparent reason doesn't mean i'm not allowed to struggle.

too many people gate-keep depression and anxiety which is incredibly annoying, disrespectful, and ignorant.

yeah, my life is freaking amazing. i still have two parents who are together, i'm not in an abusive situation, i have so many more privileges i could count that have made people try to gate-keep the depression and anxiety of people like me.

my life admittedly seems perfect from the outside. i have stuggled so much though, with my own mental issues. for as long as i can really remember, i've woken up wishing i hadn't. i've never truly thought about committing s*icide, but i still wish constantly that i won't wake up when i next fall asleep.

stop gatekeeping anxiety and depression just because it's not the anxiety and depression you know. people have their own issues and just because it doesn't look like yours doesn't mean it's not valid and real.