"𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐓𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐫𝐲 𝐁𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝"

"𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐭𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐫𝐲 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝."

(A/n: It's only ashort story..hehe. But I hope you enjoy it! 😅)

Yes, it's another story of my life from my past. I really don't want to type it but in my inside, I really want my emotions to go out. I'm just sad lately and I wanted to share the story of my dearest bestfriend and me.

So, it all started when he called me "mama" or mommy in english as I translated it. When he first called me that, I argued with him because "who the heck person will call you his own mother?!" "Am I the one who give birth to him?!" But in the end, I just got used to his "nickname" for me. *annoyed*

I'm just really starteled by his actions towards me, I didn't really cared to have a bestfriend cause I don't have one.

Above all of my classmates, he's the one that is different from them. I'm not really close to my classmates, but him? I just don't know what is running in his mind. He treats me like a older sister to him and that's how we grew closed to each other.

Days, Months passed. I grew more comfortable around him, we greet each other every morning, seating together, studying together, doing projects together, eating together, greeting goodbyes to each other, and I must tell you that we are always together everywhere.

It really warms my heart when he's around, when I felt sad, he comforts me, and seriously he's like my guardian angel.

But our friendship goes blurred.

I just don't know why he suddenly changed. He tend to keep himself distance from me, I grew worried because of that. I always try to talk to him, but what?
He always make excuses and I need to understand and respect him, because He is older than me.

I've always tried, until I didn't notice that I got into the black hole again. The hole of depression.

I tend to ask my self whenever I look at him from afar that "Did I do something wrong that makes him hate me?" I'm so confused about our friendship.

Until, there was a time that I realize that I love my bestfriend more than a normal bestfriend. Crush for short, but I didn't realize that my feelings for him can destroy our "Unsure, Blurred, Friendship".

As I told him one time that I had a crush on him, he-
change into a friend that forgot me and our moments together.

He tend to say that like he didn't see me sitting beside him or he just ignore me.

There was a time that I realize that I shouldn't tell him that I love him right? Because it makes our "Unsure, Blurred, Friendship" break right? It's all my fault! It's all my fault why he hated me now! It's ally fault why he always ignore me now! It's all my fault why he-- forgot me now...

He made me believe that he can be my bestfriend forever, he made me believe that the things we do will be continued, he made me believe that he's the one who I can share my heavy problems in my heart, but no he wasn't.

But also, I wanted to thank him for being part of my life in a short period of time.

Atleast, I helped him to be comfortable without me in his side. I tend to teach him many things about life, then guess what? He learned it very quickly. He already left me alone, it's done.

One time, he and his girlfriend faught. Also, the "temporary bestfriend" I am; I helped him to talk to his girlfriend and settle thier problems. I just really care to those people who I loved the most. Note, that's the other side of my heart.

Thanks to him, he taught me who am I befriending to, who am I trusting to, and who am I loving to.

I'm happy to be your "temporary bestfriend" atleast, I can help you a bit of your problems in life.

"A thousand words won’t bring you back, I know because I’ve tried; neither will a thousand tears, I know because I’ve cried."