Diaries Of Diana

Two

30th January 2020

Hope was all what I had and patience became my middle name. Every professional I spoke to told me to give it time and that's exactly what I did.

But where did I go wrong? somebody please explain to me, what really happened? How did I get here?

The last time I remember myself standing on my two feet is when I was all by myself in the kitchen doing a chore that I hate so so much (dishes) and the next moment I was on the floor, it happened so fast... I actually don't remember how it happened!

Shockingly! I woke up in a hospital bed with my husband beside the bed holding my hand so tight that it almost felt like he was scared he would loose me on the spot.

The doctor walked towards me and asked "Diana, are you aware that you two weeks pregnant" OMG that was like soft violin music to my ears. My face lightened up and my eyes glowed right there and there. To answer to the doctor's question I said "No and thank you doctor" with a very wide and big smile on my face, I'm damn sure everybody that was present in the room saw the happiness deep within me.

And there was silence! "Diana we have booked you for a foetus removal in the next fifteen minutes said the doctor looking at her watch... You have an ectopic pregnancy...

And right there and there my glowing eyes switched to dullnes and my lightened face turned to sadness, I couldn't believe my ears the soft violin music turned into a very sorrowful song that no one heard but only myself!  The pain I went through that day was extremely excruciating but where did it all go wrong?

I wanted to have a baby of own! I did everything that I was told to do but at the end of a long journey of me trying so hard to hold my own bundle of joy in my arms, I'm left with a bad lifetime memory engraved in my heart.

But then again where did it all go wrong?