Creed

Chapter Three

Kelsey

He was never going to stop. He was never going to stop chasing me. He thought this was easy for me, easy to look at his face every day without remembering those dark days years ago. Everything I have done, it's been for him, so no matter how much I want to run into his arms and let him comfort me, to feel his hands on my skin again, I can't. I can't do it. That was the deal. My happiness for his. 

It was an easy choice to make. And I don't regret a thing, but as each day passes, the harder it gets to ignore him. I've tried everything, I'm awful to him. I never smile, I never whisper sweet words into his ears. The Kelsey he knew before is not the Kelsey I am now. They ruined her for him.

"Kelsey! Open the door!"
"Fuck off, TJ!" I yelled towards the closed door, although by the look of the hinges, it wouldn't withstand his pounding much longer.
"Let me in." A low growl came from the entrance.
"No. When are you going to take the hint? I don't want to talk to you!"
It was silent for a moment and I released a breath, relieved that he may have finally left. My heart couldn't take much more.
"What happened to you?" It came almost as soft as a whisper.
I leant against the door, sliding down onto my knees, a lone tear slipped down my cheek.
"You have no idea." I whispered, holding the one moment of vulnerability close to my heart.
I closed my eyes, embracing the silence.

"Kelsey!" TJ pounded his fist on the windows in my kitchen.
"Jesus christ." I muttered, swatting the tears away.
"What the fuck?" I ran into the kitchen and saw TJ breaking through my window and attempting to climb in, almost landing in the sink.
"Don't worry, I'll fix it. Although this could have all been avoided if you had just opened the door."
"You know, when someone doesn't open the door, it usually means they don't want to see you. Breaking in is a little creepy, oh and also against the law." I crossed my arms over my chest.
"It's not breaking in if you know the person."
"What kind of weird, fucked up logic is that?"
"My kind of logic." He winked.
How the hell did he still manage to look attractive climbing head first through a window?
Once he was on his feet, he straightened his shirt and trained his eyes on me.
"Anyway, where were we?" A serious expression marred his face.
"Nowhere. We were nowhere. Actually you were just leaving." I spun on my heel, only I didn't get as far as I'd hoped before his hands were on my wrist and he was pinning me to the kitchen wall.
"Kelsey, will you just stop for one minute? Please?" His voice was soft, pleading almost.
I couldn't focus, he was everywhere. His scent, his touch, it had always been overwhelming and it had only seemed to have got more intense with age.
"What? What do you want?" I finally snapped, looking directly at him.
"You. I want you."
Before I could process his words, he slammed his mouth on mine, almost painfully but he knew I liked a bit of a sting. His tongue clashed with mine, and my nails raked through his hair, tugging at the roots. I bit his lip, smiling when I could taste the metallic blood in my mouth. He growled, but only pulled me closer. This was us. Rough and raw. We never pretended to be anything else. We were panting into each other's mouths, as if we were trying to drain each other of oxygen.
I couldn't keep up with his hands, they were on my waist, between my legs. His hard shaft rubbing in all the right places and I let out a gasp, rewarded with a growl.

"This is us, baby." He kissed my neck. "We fit like two puzzle pieces. You can't deny me."
His words affected me more than he would ever know because he was right. He was my missing piece.

The sharp buzzing of my phone in my back pocket snapped me out of the bliss I was experiencing. I shoved him away, panting against the wall.

He glared at me, and stepped forward.
"No, stop. I need to take this." I held my hand up.
"What could be so important that you need to take the call right now?"
"None of your business." I snapped.
"Kelsey, you're getting on my last nerve right now. I'm horny as fuck and pissed."
"Go find another girl then." I turned to leave, raising my phone to my ear.

TJ moved quickly, pulling me backwards and grabbing the phone out of my grasp, holding it to his ear.
I watched the colour drain from his face and I felt every bone in my body shatter. This was what I had been trying to avoid. What I had been so desperately trying to protect him from.

His eyes bore into my soul and I looked away, it was too painful to see his disappointment.
He launched my phone across the room and I heard it break into a thousand pieces before hitting the floor.

For the first time in ten years, I noticed tears forming in his eyes. He angrily swatted them away, before walking towards me.
Wrapping his hands around my neck, he squeezed, just enough pressure to panic me a little, but not enough that I thought he would hurt me.

"Why?" He bit out threw gritted teeth. "Why are you still in contact with him?"

I pulled at his hands, still avoiding eye contact until he slammed my back against the wall.

"WHY? TELL ME WHY THE FUCK YOU ARE STILL TALKING TO VIPER?" He roared.
"Because I'm his." I murmured, my tears filling my mouth, my hands clawing at his arms.
"Say it again." TJ's grip became tighter. "SAY IT!"
"BECAUSE I'M HIS!"

TJ released his grip and stumbled backwards, barely looking at me but I could see the disgust on his face. He was ashamed. Ashamed of me and it broke me in two.
I collapsed onto the floor, numb.

"TJ, please"
"Shut the fuck up, Kelsey."

I watched TJ walk out of my life without a backward glance, breaking both our hearts for the second time. I suppose he was getting my back for the time I walked out of his, breaking both our hearts for the first.