The pain of her life combined with the weight of the world and its
pressure.She's so strong yet so weak the smile she shows drowns out
the sadness in her eyes.So many sleepless nights,nights spent over
thinking so many situations,wondering what it would feel like if she
mattered to anyone. Wondering when the demons of her darkness will
give her a break and if there was gonna be a time when having a kind
heart wasn't a curse. Hoping and pleading crying herself to sleep
wondering when the pain will leave and she'll get a break.Trying not to
break down everytime someone asks if she's good even though she
knows she's not. Too afraid to tell anyone how she feels because they
won't understand and if they really cared about her they could see
behind this wall she has up, thinking to herself regularly, does me being
here matter to anyone? She thought if she let her guard down will
anyone care enough to listen .She did at one point but then that person
left, only causing her more pain. She fought her way from all her
thoughts. Leaving the darkness behind her and moving into the light step
by step. Finally she thought she won the war but little did she know that
was only the battle. How will she fight the darkness this time she
wonders.
