Unrequited Love

The Pain He Leaves Behind

Today was a bad day...it started out pretty good. He and I even talked. But on the way to fourth period all hell broke loose. I was walking my friend to class and about 30 paces in front of us he was walking his girlfriend. He turned and saw me and smiled. Not even two seconds after he pushed her by the wall and started kissing her. He pulled away and looked at me and smiled. I stopped dead in my tracks...holding back my tears. I turned my back to them and walked away...feeling so crappy about myself. I remember the tears started falling. I don't remember seeing his face after that, or anyone in the hallway, or even my next class. Even my french class was a blur. My teacher even knows about the situation now. He called him an ass and the girl a hoe. I used the term slut but apparently that was "inappropriate" (if you meet this girl you will agree with me). The next thing I saw was him sitting down practicing In the band hall. I sat next to my friend and tried to not look angry. She can see right through me. She asked what was wrong and I told her everything. She was so mad at him. She called him an asshole and then proceeded to comfort me. I am hurting so much. I don't know what to do. I can't look at him without feeling hurt. After practice I went to get my music from my locker and he was there. I didn't even stop. I just left with tears forming in my eyes. I have been sobbing ever since then. I don't want to deal with that anymore. I thought he and I had moved beyond the "I know you like me but I have a girlfriend so let me rub what you can't have in your face" stage. I swear. I gave up so much to go to school with him like he wanted and in the end he just shot me. Sometimes I wish that bullet went through my chest instead of my foot. I understand unrequited love...but does it have to be thrown at you every day?