Somewhere Near You

It has been years since I have been a teenager now but I am here alive and breathing except for her. I still remember that sweet peach smell she gave off. I tried looking for every product searching for that empyrean smell but none of them were like the enchanting smell she gave off. But who am I kidding with? I am standing here alone at the bus station; the exact location where she had her accident.

I wouldn't have blurted out my feelings for her if I had known what was about to happen that day. Only if I knew that my life was going to be tangled right here on this road. My one-sided crush died here, right here in front of my eyes. The weird thing is that today I still have a crush on her who is dead for seven years now. Every day I wake up I think about her, thinking what if I had kept my mouth shut at that time. Today is my mother's birthday so I had to return to my hometown. I would have never set my foot in this town; if it hadn't been for my mother.

As I was deep into my thought; the bus driver honked at me. "Are you getting on or not?".

Thank god, the bus driver honked at me, or else I would have missed my last bus. I hopped on the bus and took a seat. Suddenly I got a call.

"Hey. I found a perfect date for you. Forget about that girl, I have a really nice dude to set you up on a blind date and for Christ's sake forget that crush of your's."

"Well, you can never forget your first love I guess. But thank you for the blind date. Text me his number."; I spoke and immediately hung up. Get over? Is that even possible to try?

Visiting this town was giving me anxiety with all those flashbacks. My stomach was clenching. I was depressed and just wanted to fall asleep. After a good nap thankfully I woke up at the right stop. I hurriedly ran to the exit door which was already crowded. "Jesus, bring some patience to these people."; I thought to myself.

As I walked through that door I smelled something quite unusual. I was taken aback because I got the smell, my crush is alive or so I thought for a moment. Emma had this scent, it has to be her.

I told myself I was going crazy after visiting my hometown but I still had hope that this was Emma. "Are you alive?" I asked as I clenched my fist. I am seeing her hallucination again, why?

All those flashbacks came into my head as I looked back again and again thinking if I met Emma her; for real this time. How crazy is that? I know I am going crazy but god I still love her and I have to go look for her. But I was a coward from the beginning so I couldn't go look for her and just walked as all those memories flooded in my head.

It was after the summer break, my senior year of high school. As I walked through the door with all the papers my homeroom teacher assigned me to distribute to my classmates, I saw a girl walk by. My heart was going crazy as if I had seen a cute little puppy. At that moment I didn't know I was into girls too so I just thought I was jealous of her beauty. She was a Heather indeed.

I thought it was the first and the last time I will meet her. But fate had something else written for me. We met again and again. We had almost all of our classes synced except for chemistry and photography. She had studied literature and economics which I learned later after approaching her. Since we had so many classes together and us running to each other constantly at the school, our slight smile with a nod came to "hi" and then one day it took a turn to a great bond of friendship. My stomach still had all these butterflies every single time I think about her but I ignored it thinking something was wrong with me.

She had a boyfriend and I don't know why I kind of hated him for no reason. One day Emma called me.

"Hey, Emma. What's up. You normally just text me. Anything's wrong?"; I asked but I was not really that concerned.