A Triple Agent (OHSHC Honey X Reader)

Chapter 17: Choices

I wasn't able to sleep after that 'visit' with Yuki. Kill the person I love and survive or we both die, either way there is no happy ending for us. Now if it was honey lives and I die type of situation then the answer would be easy. But it's not. I was released from the hospital not too long after but for the rest of the time I still sit and wonder just what I should do...
"Hey Y/n?" Honey spoke snapping me out of my thoughts he looked at me worriedly. "Sorry  what's up?" I asked.
"Well now that you're finally out of the hospital, I was wondering if you would like to go out for another date since you know it's been forever..."
A Date? I guess I'll need something to take my mind off of this mess. After all I still have 28 days left. "Sure" I said blushing at my choice.  "Alright (N/n)! I'll see you at around seven!"
"Wait, ( N/n)?" I asked.
"Yeah I thought it was cute!" He said as he the room along with the rest.
I blushed like crazy as I grabbed my bag, leaving as well.
As I walked through the halls the timer was still ticking in my head...28 days left. 28 days and still don't have plan or a choice nor did I know what would be right. I continued to walk to the limo that was waiting for me and the brothers. Walking through the halls of the school. It's been 4 months on this 'mission' should I even call it that? It's feels like a hostage situation where instead I would much rather have death rather than kill someone I love. I wonder if I did this on any of previous missions and actually got to know my victim... would I even be here rather than do more murders? Would I be in the dirt? I thought about all of them filling my head with dread and guilt and fear as I continued walking seeing the exit where the limo was.
I got in,sitting in the seat nearest to the window. The door closed and the limo moved I stare out the window deep in thought obviously my brothers took notice and began to question me.
"Are you ok? Asked Kaoru who was in front of me; snapping me out of my guilty trance. "I'm fine,just thinking..." I responded continuing to watch the trees pass.
"About what?" Hikaru peaked in both of them concerned after the last talk.
I start to think about everything that had gone down in that time. When found out why I was here, my confession, Yuki nearly killing me and then practically blackmail except if don't listen the consequence is my demise... I think about this more and more tears welling in my eyes as the stress of it all was finally getting to me. Next thing I know I told the boys everything through my tears about Yuki's meeting and the choices I have.
"What are you planning on doing?" They asked.
" I don't know!!!" I burst "If I don't go through with it I'll be in the dirt but If I don't he'll be gone and I would want to die in the end; either way I lose!" I sobbed knowing it would be choice to make in the end. They didn't know what to say they had no advice to give we all sat as I sobbed and comforted me...

I lied on my bed and stared at my wall. Still thinking on this matter. It was hours since I've been home almost 6 Thinking about what I had done countless times before, the people I had hurt and the families I had ruined...that's when my plan began to form I would finish the job myself. I would have a chance to say goodbye and I can make it quick and painless so he wouldn't suffer... "It's probably better this way" I mumbled to myself petting vampire thumping her foot when I stop. I sigh depressed about it soon being my final moments with him as I get ready for our final date....