Ineffable.

You smell so sweet, I wonder how you taste.

My heart was broken. How could he do that to me, I thought he loved me. My vision started to blur as I started to understand what he had said. I wondered if what he said to me even affected him. If it was hard for him, it must have been. My breathing became heavy when I thought about us being over.

I needed to know more, he needed to explain himself. I called again but no answer. I didn't want to seem needy so I just let it be. My heart was broken all I could do was cry, tears began falling down my face as I tried to calm my breathing. But it was no use, I laid down on my bed thinking about why he would do that. My anxiety got the better of me and I couldn't help but think it was because I wasn't good enough for him.

He was famous and I was nothing but his little sister's best friend. For you to understand this I have to take you back to the beginning. To our first kiss, our first fight, and the first break-up of many. For you to understand us you need to understand our story so here we go.

two years ago

I fluttered my eyes open, sunlight seeping through my window making me squint. I thought about my plan for the day as I started getting ready. Coffee, Classes, Clean. I repeated in my head hoping I'd do them. I'm in my last year at the University of Los Angeles, making me 21 years old.

I live in an apartment near campus as sharing a tiny room with a stranger sounded foolish to me. I live with my best friend Anna. We met almost 4 years ago at a small cafe, I complimented her outfit as she did to me, and we kind of just clicked. She wasn't home at the moment, probably with one of her other friends.

I After I finish putting on my clothes I walked out of my room into the kitchen. I decided I didn't feel like making any coffee so I left. I got in my car and drove to Phils. Even though I don't feel like making it I still need it. Once I got there I ordered my coffee and sat at one of the tables.

I brought my phone out and started scrolling through Instagram. That's when I saw him. Daniel Seavey. He was my best friend's older brother. He's two years older than us and extremely hot, I guess I always kind of had an infatuation with him.

As I liked the picture I heard a voice speak behind me.

"That is an extremely handsome man" I heard a familiar voice speak.

When I turned my head I saw him once again. I could not miss those baby blue eyes and his usual smell. I can't place it but he always smelt of a certain freshness and a little sweet. Except for when he's going out. Then he uses his particular cologne that makes me want to combust at the first wisp.

"The Daniel Seavey?" I exclaimed. "Whatever are you doing here".

"I could ask you the same thing Ms. Y/l/n," Daniel stated cheekily.

"Considering I have coffee in front of me and we're in a coffee shop id say it's pretty apparent. You on the other hand don't usually drink coffee."

He chuckled, "good point. The boys wanted coffee and I thought that I'd just get it."
"Wow, you're actually being nice?"
"Hey, I can be sometimes."
"Oh yeah sure" I beamed.
We both laughed together.
"Well It was nice talking to you y/l/n", Daniel said after we settled down.
"I would say the same but I don't wanna lie to you" I joked. 

He faked an offended look as he walked out with one last final glance at me. I waved with a smug look on my face. I looked back down at my coffee to see that the whipped cream melted, just great. I grabbed the coffee, my bag and made my way back to the car. Glancing at the time I saw that it was 9:21. Shit. I thought, 9 minutes until class starts.

A 3 hours lecture. I was miserable. However, people sit through that and actually pay attention blows my mind. Nevertheless, it was over and it's Friday so I have no more classes. Friday also means clubbing night with Anna. Saturdays are for recovery movies and lots of snacking.

Sundays are for cleaning. Boring but therapeutic. Mainly the day is singing songs at the top of our lungs as we do it. I'm a single 21-year-old so do I have once on while hookups, maybe. However, that is a very rare event.

Today was not one of those days. Why? You may ask well it's because that blue-eyed boy is all I can think about conveniently. Anna introduced us after I told her about my obsession with this band called Why don't we. I didn't know that she was my one of the band mate's sister because I knew he had a sister named Anna but I never saw a picture of her. When i found out i was in shock, Anna just laughed. She offered to introduce us since she was close to them but i refused. I didn't want to make it seem like that's the only reason we were friends. But she knew that that wasn't the reason and trusted me enough.

She invited me over her house one day where i found all of the why don't we boys there. Zach the youngest aka the same age as me. Hes is my best friend i swear we have the same mind. There's Corbyn, I call him bean he's pretty much a nerd but we have common ground and he's great to talk to. There's Jonah he is the oldest, so that makes him the most responsible he's definitely the mom of the friend group always giving advice. 

Me and him are really close. We have a lot of the same interest and can talk about them for hours. Like harry potter. There's jack, hes the daddy, wow, not like that he literally is a dad. Hes ridiculously funny and always knows what to do to calm me when i'm anxious. Then there's Daniel. Hes impulsive and protective. He cares about work over all else and is absolutely devoted to it. It's unhealthy but he knows how to let loose. 

He's definitely a partier like all the boys but hes the worst. He has the most hookups and hes a player honestly. Hes been hurt in the past so he didn't want to get into another relationship unless he was serious about them and wanted a real future with them. He obviously hasn't met her yet. They all quickly became my best friends. Besides Anna. 

I moved to California for college so i never made friends with anyone after i met them. Didn't feel the need to. But i have met there girlfriends who i meet up with once in a while.  Kay cook, Zach's girlfriend.

(I'm gonna make the rest up because we don't know who the rest of there girlfriends are and i'm not gonna put franny because duh. i love her so much though)

 Makayla Williams Jonahs girlfriend. Rain Jordan Corbyns girlfriend and jack he's single but i have met his ex Gabriella, we talk here and there. 

(im gonna make the next chapter a cast).

I picked my outfit out. I was gonna wear a black skin tight dress with a silver ring on my finger. I straightened and curled my hair so that it was wavy. I added a black purse, black high heel boots and hoop hearings to my outfit. 

https://pin.it/7KDEdM3 

I decided to just chill for the day before it was time to go. So i go-puffed some snacks and watched the vampire diaries until Anna got home. 

A/N.  Well how do ya like it so far. This chapter is 1326 words long. I didn't want it to be to short so. This is my first book so don't be harsh if its bad idc anyway. Goodbye. My name is ila by the way. (EYE-LA) ;)