Koichi Oneshots ٩( ᐛ )و (Discontinued, for now)

~ Alone. Forever. (Koichi x Alone!Depressed!Reader)

Warning!: Includes suicide, sorry about that.

This time, this is based off how I am feeling. How I've been doing. The last part of this story is fake, I don't plan on committing suicide.

Keywords:

Y/N = Your name
L/N = Last name
H/C = Hair color
H/L = Hair Length
E/C = Eye color
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You were alone.

All the time.

And you didn't like it that way.

People tried to walk to you, but you pushed them away.

Because you wanted to be alone.

But you were alone.

And you were a fool to push those who tried to help away.

You used to have friends, but because of an argument, you walked away from them. You moved a year later, made new friends, but they had forgotten about you.

You had online friends, but they were soon never online.

That happened a couple years ago. Now here you are, the Loner of Morioh.

At home, you'd cry to yourself all the time. Say how afraid you were. Sobbing to your heart's content. Locked up, laying down on your bed, and sob. Sob, sob, sob.

But it didn't make you happy.

Whenever you saw people in friend groups, laughing and talking, you felt jealous. And was reminded of how naïve you were.

Yes, that was the word, "naïve."

You were naïve to those around you, never thought of the feeling of being so alone. You hoped to be roommates with your best friend, only for her to make a joke. Even though she knew it would set you off.

You were naïve.

A naïve child.

A naïve person.

A naïve citizen.

A naïve human.

Now, all you've ever felt was sadness. You didn't feel any worth in life, being alone had made you empty. A shadow.

Life was no longer a golden rainbow that had skittles raining down below it. Nor was there a pot of gold sitting at the end of your trail.

There was nothing.

Only darkness, loneliness, and silence.

You were left alone with your own thoughts, the voices, and yourself.

'What if I never spoke?'

'What if I never used this platform?'

'What if I just ended it here?'

'What if I go outside and see if I can socialize with strangers?'

But no matter what,

They'll forget you too.

And so, you wake up, beginning your day with a lonely whistle of the wind. You hated it. You didn't even bother eating breakfast, what was the point? You left, ready for school.

You were a dark gloom of emptiness, and everyone around you felt that. You didn't care, expressing yourself was a way of showing what kind of person you are, right?

Even if you tried, nobody would want to talk to you. You're not interesting. You're not normal, like them. You're not a un-forgetful person.

You did good in classes, but no one would care. No one would even care about your presence.

Only you exist in your world. You're nonexistent in everyone else's world.

Even so, you still push on.

Why, is the question?

You don't know. Something inside your gut says so.

Lunch began. You headed towards your usual spot to eat lunch alone, only to see your spot was taken by a friend group. A pompadour, a baseball-like face, and silver hair.

Those features peeked your interest.

But why?

You don't know.

The silver hair noticed you standing there, and his eyes widened. "Ah, was this your spot? Sorry about that!"

That was when you had a meaning to live.

A meaning to be happy.

A meaning for you to enjoy life.

After your encounter with the group, which contains in the infamous Josuke Higashikata, Okuyasu Nijimura, and your best friend, Koichi Hirose. You finally began to smile more and laugh more, and had good memories.

You liked it.

You loved it.

You weren't alone anymore.

But, that quickly changed.

After graduating high school, you all went to separate collages. Koichi went to do investigation, Josuke went off to do police work, and Okuyasu...well he went into community college.

You tried contacting them in the middle of the year, only to receive a;

Josuke: Hey, do I know you?
Okuyasu: I don't know you.
Koichi: Sorry to ask, but do I know you?

That's when you realized the cold truth.

In the end,

you were just alone.

A nobody.

A husk.

An emotionless being.

A bug that no one pays attention to.

You faced facts, and in the end, isolated yourself from everyone else.

You don't need anyone. They'll forget about you. No matter how close you are.

Your life began to lose meaning.

And soon enough...

"Investigations on Y/N L/N murder case had finally come to a conclusion; she committed suicide and had left a note next to the gun she used. It reads the following;

"I'm sorry that I was a loner. I thought once I had met the three boys in high school, my life would have a meaning, a light, and I would be no longer alone. But I guess that was wrong. I faced a cold truth by the responses of my quote and quote, "best friends" after graduation. In fact, I loved one of them. Not just as a friend, but as a lover. I don't blame them, I blame myself. For living. For ruining their lives with my existence. I don't have to worry about being alone anymore. Because right now, I'm gone."

Scientists believe that.."

Those three boys spit out their drinks, hearing the name 'Y/N L/N' finally ring a bell.

"N-No way.." Josuke began. "How could we be.." Okuyasu mumbled.

"So forgetful..?" Koichi finished, with tears in his eyes.