[TW :talks about depressing topics]
If you listened real closely you can hear the shouts of help. If look closely you would see that they arent allright. If you cant tell if they are lying, look at their eyes and you shall see. I look at my eyes and recognise someone I don't know. I'm being hurt or anything, but thats not what my tears are saying. When I was laughing I cried. People think its because im laughing hard, but its that I dont crie when I'm sad. I can't process that its alright to do that so I laugh for an excuse. I give dry laughs that sound convincing to cover my tears that well up and are trying to fall. I'm insecure and im alright with that. I don't like my laugh, body, and smile. I learned about cutting. I didnt want my parents finding out, so I hurt my right thigh and didnt feel anything. I was confused because people I didnt feel better or worse. I tried it agian and learned it did nothing. I stopped and felt as if it was a loop repeating over, and over agian. Im sorry but I'm not that happy alone with my thoughts. But then I met them..
My world was new. I felt a tingling sensation near them. I felt... Happy. I learned that it was love that I was feeling. I thought this finally worth it. But they hurt me. I learned that some people arent what they make out to be. I met someone new and they nice. They happy with their love. I was friend-zoned multiple times. But they broke up, I missing in that building for a year then came back. They were single. I was felt emphany for them seeing as I knew what it feels like. They were excepting and were welcoming. Their laugh and voice cracks that happened ever so often alured me. I was just friend in my head but then they confessed. I was confused and wondered if this was just a joke. But it wasn't, they helped me relize I could feel happy with them, and not just by myself. This 2020 was tragic for me considering the losses my dads family has encountered. This person confessed and asked on September 17, 2020.
So I know this is like you know sad I guess. But yeah idk what to say so yeah im posting in like 2-1 days so look out for those and tell me if you liked this. -*-
Also the picture is my dead piggie
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Romancerequest are open forever! this will probably be uploaded whenever I can. That means that I'll probably post 3 times a month or less. This is also purely just for fun and not real! ^Will do^ ¡Will not do¡ -fluff- °Ya...
