Soulmates

Chapter ten(edited)

Erinai POV
'play song when you see ***'
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It's time for the date. I'm very nervous which is something that doesn't happen, Xaio, Kerri and I never get nervous because we are deltas, most of us feel indifference so the fact that I'm nervous scared me because deltas only get nervous around their mates but majority of the time towards him I feel annoyance.

As I'm here getting dressed, I'm annoyed and worried what is his friend is an idiot to both Xaio and I. A lot of alphas are horrible people if you didn't know. Majority are narcissistic idiots who think omegas must submit to their every whim and deltas must service them, it's foolish.

It's time for this date at that fancy ass French restaurant and I heard it's five star and expensive as shit so they'll be paying.
So I got a text from Xaio .
Xaio: hey dude I'm here
Erinai: cool, I'm getting Gatorade. Ya want some?
Xaio: yeah get me a lemon lime, yeah?
Erinai: ok

I went to the fridge and got my frost Gatorade and his lemon lime and I added my finishing touches. I wore my jewelry and and finished gelling my hair into my messy curls. I think I look sexy.

I left and went out the door and saw Xaio in Blake's sleek black and gold Lamborghini. Dang, Blake really got style.
"Hey dude."
"Wassup"
"I honestly don't wanna go but otherwise I'm fucking alright."
"Same here but we look hot and with this car we cool, man we cool."
When he said that I resisted the urge to laugh. I honestly wanna show this off because it's not everyday, you see deltas looking hot as hell.
"Yeah man, we look hot."
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That's when the radio started blasting emotions by Iann dior. He's an upcoming musician and some of his songs are good.

In my head, she said it's all in my head (my head)
But it's not, think I'd rather be dead (be dead)
Can't forgive or forget what you did (you did)
She said I drove her away with my emotions (I drove her away)
Can't take the pain anymore, I'm feeling hopeless (can't take the pain)
In my head, she said it's all in my head (my head)
But it's not, think I'd rather be dead (be dead)
Can't forgive or forget what you did (you did)
I don't even know why I try (I try)
You did me wrong and I can't forget that
Tell me what you want I know it's a lie (lie)
You broke my heart and you cannot fix that
You can't erase what you've done to me
But certainly, all you do is burden me
It's hurting deep
Our past is like a blur to me
It's hard to see, but look what you have done to me
What you want?
What you want from me?
What you want?
What you want from me?
What you want?
What you want from me?
In my head, she said it's all in my head (my head)
But it's not, think I'd rather be dead (be dead)
Can't forgive or forget what you did (you did)
She said I drove her away with my emotions (I drove her away)
Can't take the pain anymore, I'm feeling hopeless (can't take the pain)
In my head, she said it's all in my head (my head)
But it's not, think I'd rather be dead (be dead)
Can't forgive or forget what you did (you did)
In my head, she said it's all in my head (my head)
But it's not, think I'd rather be dead (be dead)
Can't forgive or forget what you did (you did)

I know every lyric because this song helped me in some of my worst days. After that wishing well by Juice WRLD started playing, I love that shit.

Mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, uh
I can't breathe (Chopsquad), I can't breathe, 999
Waiting for the exhale
I toss my pain with my wishes in a wishing well
I can't breathe, I'm waiting for the exhale
Toss my pain with my wishes in a wishing well
Still no luck, but oh, well
I still try even though I know I'm gon' fail
Stress on my shoulders like a anvil
Perky got me itching like a ant-hill
Drugs killing me softly, Lauryn Hill
Sometimes I don't know how to feel
Ring-ring, phone call from depression
You used my past and my memories as a weapon
On the other line, I talk to addiction, huh
Speakin' of the devil, all the drugs, I miss them
This can't be real, is it fiction?
Somethin' feels broke, need to fix it
I cry out for help, do they listen?
I'ma be alone until it's finished
This is the part where I tell you I'm fine, but I'm lying
I just don't want you to worry
This is the part where I take all my feelings and hide 'em
'Cause I don't want nobody to hurt me
I can't breathe, I'm waiting for the exhale
Toss my pain with my wishes in a wishing well
Still no luck, but oh, well
I still try even though I know I'm gon' fail
Stress on my shoulders like a anvil
Perky got me itching like a ant-hill
Drugs killing me softly, Lauryn Hill
Sometimes I don't know how to feel
Sometimes I don't know how to feel
Let's be for real
If it wasn't for the pills, I wouldn't be here
But if I keep taking these pills, I won't be here, yeah
I just told y'all my secret, yeah
It's tearing me to pieces
I really think I need them
I stopped taking the drugs and now the drugs take me
This is the part where I tell you I'm fine, but I'm lying
I just don't want you to worry
This is the part where I take all my feelings and hide 'em
'Cause I don't want nobody to hurt me
I can't breathe, I'm waiting for the exhale
Toss my pain with my wishes in a wishing well
Still no luck, but oh, well
I still try even though I know I'm gon' fail
Stress on my shoulders like a anvil
Perky got me itching like a ant-hill
Drugs killing me softly, Lauryn Hill
Sometimes I don't know how to feel