As long as I don't loose myself | Ni-ki FF

Mixed feelings

Starring at my phone seeing I passed the audition... Will I be able to achieve my dreams? Can I finally be happy for once? What if-, my thoughts cutting of after I heard my mom calling me from downstairs. ,,coming!!''
I almost screamed back. Going downstairs I saw my mom has made me sandwiches for my flight, ''hey sweetie'' she said after planting a kiss on my cheek. ''morning mom, when are we going?'' I asked her smiling thinking she will drive me to the airport like a mom would do right? ''About that y/n, I am so sorry my coworker called me and asked if i can begin my shift earlier since half of them noted sick''. My smile faded halfway through the sentence,  nothing new I thought she has always left me alone. ''oh okay'' I shortly answered with a forced smile. My bond with my mom has never been good, I've always been jealous of the girls wo saw their mom as best friends. Before I could even grab my food, luggage and backpack I packed the other day, she hugged me tight whispering ''I love you so much y/n you are now old enough to take care of your self please text me when you arrived'' , ''I love you too mom'' I answered her hopeful before she left. You're may now wondering where I'm going? My name is y/n I am 15 years old and I passed the audition for a dance cover group under HYBE Labels. I've always had a passion for Music, especially dancing and playing instruments. I'm not even that sad about leaving my home country, since I've never really had real friends who I can lean on. Besides my mom no one really cared about me, I can finally cut contact with the toxic side of my mom's family. My dad has passed away when I was only 5 since then I never really saw his side of the family which made me sad because they seemed like really nice people. ''okay focus y/n don't stick to the past it already happened'' I tried to calm myself as I packed my things and left my home, I am going to miss my room.

                       Time skip - Airport

After the bus arrived I went and checked in, ''It is only 12pm and my flight is going at 3pm what am i going to do?😭'' I sighed out and decided to just watch a K-drama. Hours later I finally heard my flight being called, ''Flight 2672 is now ready for boarding, I repeat flight 2672 is now ready for boarding''. ''Yesss'' I thought excited I went to the Gate. I am finally leaving this country I thought but my excitement decreased as I saw parents hugging their Kids and wishing them a goodbye. I tried so shrug away the random wave of sadness. ''Come on you're on your way to your dream country'' I thought and the gates finally swung open and I made my way to my seat.
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heyy^^ this is my first fanfiction after years i hoped you enjoyed this small first part
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