Some how I feel it's my fault. Tears in my eyes. I tried to not cry for awhile its the second day and I lost it. My mind is beyond belief as i buri myself deeper into my thoughts... Crying your self to sleep every night is worthless. It just makes me really tired in tho morning. Found that out myself. Do you ever get the feeling it's all your fault that something bad happened. It's happening to me. If it wasn't for my family and friends I probably would be in hell right now. I can remember all the times I spent with him. In his car driving down the motorway with the roof down. It was awesome. It was on my 10th birthday. We were on the way to a bowling ally. I remember being on an ice rink with him. Everything. I love him so much. I know most of you are confused onto what's happening in my life. Let's just say I wish this pain on nobody. Today I woke up early for school. Got ready normal things to do in the morning. Then after that I waited for my brothers friend to get to my place because we give him lifts to school on some days and his mum gives me and my brother lifts to school on other days. I think it's a bit unfair because my brothers friends mum only does 3 lifts in a week while my mum does 7. But we got to school and my brother and his friend wondered of. I stood in my normal spot waiting for my friend in the freezing cold. When she gets here. We got strait to our class but it doesn't start till later so we go on out phones and chat until our other friend gets here. Then it's like five minuets till class starts. 4 period is pe and guess what I forgot my pe kit. So I have to where the schools one it stinks of bo.horrible so I spray my links deodorant on it. Then the rest of the day goes on as normal . After school I ask if one of my friends could come round on Friday so we can do home work. Today's it's Wednesday. So not im here righting this. Boring af I know. Bye 😒
Btw this was ment to be published on the 21st but it didn't work but It didn't work
