I look out across the sea of eyes
Their all on me
And mine dart rapidly looking from face to face
Then away from them, not meeting their gaze
Looking for a way out
But I’m trapped
Questions are shot like bullets
from all directions
They rickashay through my head
Barely being processed before another comes
Eyes burning holes through my skin
I can’t move, don't make the suspect something, anything
I’ve been put in the spotlight unwillingly
Like a cylinder cell it traps me
When I say “no” you ask again
I tell you I don’t like it – you say I love the attention
But I really don’t
At the first question asked I feel myself hold my breath
As they keep coming I begin to shake, not that you will see
I’d like to be left alone to be honest
But I’m court in a trap
If I do nothing they’ll keep asking
If I do something they’ll laugh
I feel judged and out of place
As though what I said or did was wrong or not normal
You tell me you liked it or just thought it was funny
I can’t tell if that’s what you really think
I have this underlying feeling that you’re making a joke of me
Yet don’t want to believe it
So i can feel liked or appreciated for once
I don’t want to be put under so much pressure
You may find this strange, you may misunderstand
You probably feel that you were just being nice
Or you were “just asking”
But you don’t understand and may never do so
I can’t process everything you ask all at once
I don’t like to stand out (I’d like not to be seen at all sometimes)
And to have everyone looking at me makes me uneasy
I feel like you expect more than I can give
or will criticize me when you don’t understand
I’d like to share what I like doing
but I’m scared
I feel unwanted by society and judged for being different
Trapped by everyone and everything including my condition
I don’t mind you asking questions but one at a time would be nice
And I know that it's polite to look
At the person your talking to
But don't do it so intensely
Don't look into my eyes
I fear you'll see how much
I want to hide
YOU ARE READING
trapped
Poetryin my English class at schools they used to get me to sing, I liked to sing before this but it was difficult to adter
