Twelve Weeks of You

Week Nine

Week Nine

Mridula propped her head on her elbow, trying hard to not let it fall like the rest of her. She watched as Veer stupidly decided to go to jail for Zara and she knew it was the movie that was making her body tremble like this. The air felt hotter and not even the fan Samira had placed near her face was helping. Mridula felt like she was drowning in her self, her body getting heavier by the second.

Suddenly she sat up before getting up from the bed. Samira frowned and rolled to her side, pausing the movie. Her eyes waited for an answer to this abrupt departure. Focusing on Veer was making her forget about Aarav temporarily. She thought it would work for Mridula too.

"Don't pause, just finish please." She spoke dryly, opening her hair only to tie it again. Samira frowned harder, getting on her knees as she now decided to glare. "I thought you said you could sit through Veer Zara any number of times." Mridula sighed, she knew she had said that. Because it used to be true, and she thought it was still something she knew about herself. But apparently, that was not the case anymore.

"I can't-" Mridula looked away, feeling her voice crack. She couldn't get herself to watch movies anymore, she would sit down but then leave them midway. It was like she had become comfortable-almost habitual of people leaving her with their stories right in the middle when she started getting attached.

She could feel a tear drop down her eyes. Samira walked to her, wrapping her arms around her as Mridula felt more tears come down. "I don't know what's wrong with me, I am not weak."She muttered.

Finally, it was raining inside of her too. And he wasn't her to offer her an umbrella.

Samira rubbed her arms. "This is not a weakness, registering your feelings never is."She whispered and Mridula knew she was the writer but it was always Samira who had the correct words.

"Did he tell you what Aarav was talking about?" Samira questioned softly, as she sat up. Mridula shook her head slowly, wiping the tears before they even could fall.

"That is why it's so stupid, to feel so much for something that was so little. I didn't even know him, just a part that he let me see."Mridula was now sobbing, as she hid her face. It had been nine days since Karna left her an awkward text message, something about how he was fine but was out. She tried calling him, texting him, reaching out to him in middle of her dreams and thinking about him every waking moment- nothing was working.

Being heartbroken brought out the worst in her, and somehow she didn't recognise that person at all. But Samira did, as she hugged her tightly, Mridula just knew that she did.

And there was comfort in that, knowing there was an anchor out there, waiting for you to find your way home.

"And I thought I knew pain, turns out there is a whole new chapter of it that I didn't even recognise. You know I don't like surprises"Samira laughed softly hearing Mridula, as she rubbed her shoulders.She didn't know what to say to her, because in truth, she knew it wasn't easy being heartbroken.

"There is nothing easy about this, but I know you will get through this. Just like you get through everything else."She whispered, making Mridula nod.

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Rooman rested his body on the wall, watching big fluffy clouds pass by. His head was hurting but lately, it was always hurting. He felt his phone buzz in his pocket as he fished it out, frowning at the caller ID. Normally he would have answered it, he knew he liked the attention of people around him. Being neglected all his childhood by his stepmother, he felt he deserved all the attention he could muster. But at the moment it felt like any other person was stealing precious time and he was already falling short.