So I'm going to try and put this in words. I feel like I am absolutely crazy. Maybe I'm crazy or maybe I'm one of the only normal ones? The things I think about scare me. The thought of death scares me. Not the part about letting go and having all the pain end, but what happens after we die? No one knows for sure if there's a heaven or a hell. All of us are still alive therefore we can't ever know for sure what happens. It's not like someone who's died can just make a phone call to someone who is alive and tell them what happens next. When we die what if we are just reborn again as another creature or human? I hate how some people can just kill an innocent person and torture them but not feel guilty. How do people sexually assault another and do torturous things to them for their own enjoyment? How does one tell another to kill them self but feel no shame? Why are people blowing up villages and killing innocent people? Someone please tell me how people can go and tear someone apart and pick out every flaw just so they can feel good about themselves. Why are there people judging others based upon race? We were all put here for a reason and you can't just discriminate because of there skin color or ethnicity. Why do some religions thing that gays are bad people? Why is "gay" used as an insult? How is calling someone a sexuality supposed to be an insult? They were put here just like the rest of the other people in the world and deserve to be treated equally. Why are transgenders treated so badly by out society? They're just people, just like you and me. Why do people from different religions get treated disrespectfully by others? Just because someone lives in a different part of the world, follows a different path than you, or studies a different religion doesn't mean that they are a terrorist. The way we all treat each other is honestly unacceptable. We are all hypocrites and greedy. There are young kids starving to death and having the constant fear of dying because of starvation. Some children sit in school each day hoping not to be beaten when they get home. Why are some people so angry that they feel the need to abuse another whether it's sexual, physical, or verbal? Why do people get ill with deadly diseases like cancer? Hundreds of people die each day because of deadly diseases. I wonder how someone can tease and taunt someone until they feel like they're absolutely nothing. Some people stare into space and just try to remember what it was like to be happy. It's terrible that some people are hurt so much that they become used to it. Some people are so broken that they feel the need to take there own life. Sometimes it's not other people who push them over the edge but it's just their own mind. They constantly compare themselves to others hoping that they can be just like them. Sometimes they feel like they just aren't good enough, like they can't do anything right, or it's just what is happening in their life. You can't change someone but you can inspire them to change. Everyone will find a groups of people who will make them happy but happiness doesn't last forever. This groups of people could be a family, a fandom, staff at a job, friends, or even just people off the street. Everything comes to an end, people, animals, plants, happiness, friends, and even sadness. Depressed people often ask " will it ever get better?" and sometimes they think that everything will keep getting worse. But the pain and sadness will end. I don't really know why but sometimes pain feels good. Pain shouldn't feel good but when you are so broken that you can't feel anything it's feels like the only solution. I don't understand life. What is my purpose? I have so much to say and so many things on my mind but I just can't seem to find the words to say it. How are some people so unaware of people suffering? Like I don't know about other people but when I meet someone I can just tell if they're hiding something. Parents treat there kids as if they're fine and have nothing wrong with them, when really they struggle every morning to get out of bed and face the world. Speaking your mind is one of the most difficult things. I'm tired of holding on and I feel like giving up. But everything comes to an end, one day you will be happy, you might be sad again too, there is a whole life ahead of us and no one knows what will happen. The world is a fucked up place, it's full of terrible things, but it's also got some pretty amazing things. We are all hypocritical, selfish, greedy, needy, depressed, beautiful works of art. I believe that everyone has a purpose. No matter how unimportant you think you may be, there will always be someone who cares about you. We can change the world and make it a better place, no more starving people, no more murders, no more abuse or depression. The only way we can change the world is if we accept the fact that we are not at all perfect. Instead of being greedy or selfish give to someone else, guide someone else to success. Everyone changes and grows, mentally and physically, therefore we all are capable of helping to make the world a better place. Show love and respect to one another. Give to someone in need. Spread positivity. Strive for success.
Learn to love yourself, treat yourself with respect.
