Whenever a book says a word or sentence is "lodged in their throats", you don't really think about it. You read that part, acknowledge it conveys an emotion and picture, and move on. You don't take in the actual experience of it. When you can't say a word, or a sentence, it is stuck. A piece of black that starts to suffocate. You can't even say anything else unless it is to play everything off. You can't say "I'm okay", you're scared to. You can't say "It's okay", you know it isn't. You can't say it. Why? You're scared that when you utter it aloud, someone will hear, or something will happen. The lie will grow and darken, forming a happenstance with which you have created from lies. You know it's not true, and you know it hurts, you know you're not okay. So you suffer. The black only thickening the longer you try, blocking any sound but a feeble cry. Tears will fill your eyes, but you force it down; you can't cry, you shouldn't, you have to keep up the stiff self you present. Eventually it all fades, after many minutes of choked pain, it fades. It's dark out and you really don't have time for this, so you decide to sleep it off. Under the covers where it's dark and warm, you feel your heartbeat slow, and realize your breathing is deeper too. Maybe when you read how a character has something "lodged in their throats", you'll think about how it really hits them.
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Misc + Etc = Me
LosoweI'm a little bored and regretting this decision already, but since my other two book things absolutely suck butt I've decided screw it, you know? This is probably just going to be random skits and scenes, or anything I think of. I'd say anything peo...
