A Piece Of Myself

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I feel like my world is falling apart

Every second is a rumble on the floor

Words like a stake in my heart

They hurt every day and more

i want to kneel on my corner and cry

I need to lay my feet down for once

Why do I crave to scream through the silent night

Just to feel  even a sense of lust

This isn't me, it ain't my head's talking

Invisible strings force the tears

How can I be afraid to keep on walking

How can I be controlled by non-existent fears

Is it so fucking much to ask

No conspiracies behind my back

I need to stay strong under all this husk

And never throw my choices in luck

I know I have to step a foot up

Stand with my chest high in the air

I need to stay still and neither escape nor run

And everything that is thrown at me-

                                                 -I have to bear

For how long will I keep the switch off

Why is it so hard not to feel

It's all for his eyes that I can't be controlled

And that all around me seems surreal

Breathe once, breathe twice

Headphones on and the world is gone

Why, why are there so real lies

When will the storm end, leaving me alone-

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