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distraction

slight NSFW/angst
comfort for a rough day

chrollo x reader

word count: 1100
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The wood floors increased the echo of your clicking heels, irritating your throbbing headache. The faster you walked, the closer you were to breaking down, every little thing was ticking you off. Your fists balled up in anger at your side, your left hand held the gold apartment key with a solid death grip. The room was only a few steps away, your eyes already burned with salty tears. Reaching out, you shakily undid the lock, throwing open the cool toned door.

Of course, you accidentally slammed the door shut, causing your mood worsen. Closing your eyes, you took a deep breath- Just breathe, Y/N. You calmed yourself, dabbing at the tears in the corner of your eyes. As you bent down to remove your heels, a deep voice cut through the air.

"Babe? Is that you?"

Your head snapped up at the familiar sound, Of course he's home. Instead of feeling relief that your boyfriend, Chrollo, had come to stay, you just felt frustrated. No way in hell did you want to break down in front of him and have you seem like a mess.

Suddenly, your eyes widened as a new idea popped in your head. The perfect distraction.

Striding into the living room, you found your lover sitting on the modern sofa, a book now shut in his left hand. The way his large gray eyes filled with confusion, made your heart sink. No. You didn't want to think about that right now. This was a time to think of just him.

You turned your attention to his dashing appearance. He was dressed comfortably, already having showered and combed through his dark locks. Chrollo was...beautiful. Putting on a smile, you stood right in front of his knees, gazing down into his pale features.

"Hey, are you ok-", he started, his light eyes widening as your lips sealed his next words. Desperately, you tugged at his bottom lip, feeling his tongue hesitantly ask for entrance. His movements were a bit off, though he still tried to play along. You put your hands on his shoulders, moving to straddle him.

His hands traced down to your hips, squeezing them gently. A trail of fire burned wherever he touched, the feeling was absolutely addictive. You needed more. The kiss began to deepen as you both rubbed against one another, your eyes screwed tight to focus on the dull pulse of pleasure shooting through your core.

Without warning, Chrollo held your hips still, breaking apart from your plump lips. You were panting with each breath, a little frustrated at the sudden loss of his warmth and movement.

His worried gaze met yours, flipping a stone in your stomach. One of his hands slid to your lower back, gently rubbing through your shirt.

"Hello to you too, darling. As much as I love to taste you, are you alright? You seem.." his hand paused, shifting up higher on your spine. "Stressed."

You took your hands off his shoulders, shakily cupping his soft, pale cheeks. Yes- you were stressed. Life around you seemed to get rougher by the day, your mind could barely hold itself together at times. For once, you just wanted to indulge in something to take away this constant pain.

Giving him a small smile, you leaned in closer, touching your forehead against his cross.

"Just...distract me," you murmured against his lips, sliding your eyes close as you resumed the kiss. His grip on your hips grew firm as your tongues fought in a never-ending battle of lust. You jumped a bit as his large hands slid underneath your thighs. Before you knew it, he heaved you up in one fluid motion, your body weight resting against his chest.

Chrollo was a strong man, you had no doubts that he'd drop you, especially with your arms wrapped tightly around his neck. He carried you to the bedroom, your mind already preparing for his intense lust. Opening the door, excitement washed over you for what was to come.

Suddenly, Chrollo broke apart the deep kiss, dropping your body onto the bed. You gazed up at him expecting to meet eyes that mirrored your lust, perhaps excitement; Instead, you saw his face contorted with worry.

Can't one thing go right today?

"Babe, fucking me won't make you feel any better. I don't want to be a temporary solution." He reached out a pale hand, cupping your cheek softly. The tender gesture made your heart melt, the dams holding back your tears were on the verge of cracking. "Can you tell me what's wrong, please?"

Ashamed, you covered your eyes with a palm as if it would force the tears to stay in. You bit your lip to focus on something else besides the building pressure behind your eyes that threatened to burst at any moment. Your breathing was heavy with controlled breaths, determined to stay calm. After a few minutes of silence from your shaking form, Chrollo sat on the bed, dragging you into his chest.

That was it. His warm embrace shattered the last piece in your mind.

Hot tears pinpricked the corner of your eyes, your hands shook as you went to hug him tighter. For the next few minutes you let out silent sobs into his shirt, soaking the dark fabric. His palm rubbed your back soothingly, pulling you into his lap with ease. You moved your head into the crook of his neck, his soft whispers tickled your ears. His fingers slid through your hair, calming you down. The kindness he was showing was almost overwhelming.

After a while of crying into his neck, he carefully laid back, pulling you down with him. You sniffled as you tried to get comfortable, his arms still wrapped tight around your body. Even though you felt your body getting hot, you didn't want to back away from his warmth.

"You know," he started softly, his fingers played with a loose strand of your hair. "It's okay to let it out sometimes. Holding it in will only hurt you," he whispered, pressing a tender kiss onto your forehead. You knew he was right, but it was still hard to hear.

"Will you try and talk to me about this kind of stuff more?" he asked, running his hand through your hair again. You slowly nodded in a muted understanding. Your fingers gripped tighter onto his shirt, pulling it closer to your face.

Inhaling deeply, his heavy scent washed over you: powerful, calming, numbing.

You were finally safe.

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don't mind me not posting in forever 🥴 I have so many drafts but I just never end up finishing them. This was kind of self-indulgent?¿ Just want a hug from the spider right about now 😔 I know a few of you were hoping for some comfort chapters so I might finish the draft I have of the hiso comfort!

I hope you all have a great start of your week and enjoyed Halloween 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩