All in G♥️ode time

Chapter 5

As I was staring at Zach I couldn't believe what was happening. Zach really was alive and he was standing in front if me. This is my first time seeing him and after 8 years of searching, in a way I feel whole again. Although I wanted this moment to last forever, for a spy, or anything really, not much ends up the way you want it to.
"Um e-hem" my mother cleared her throat and I took that as my cue to stop staring and sit down while Zach took to the podium to introduce his boys and whatever else he may have said. I'm so confused, on one hand I am so happy to have Zach back in my life but at the same time it has been 8 years and a lot can change in that amount of time. Then there is always the question of why its been 8 years, did he not want to see me, did he think I was dead, was he brainwashed into forgetting like I forgot my summer. All are possibilities and I won't make my mind up on how I feel about Zach until I know the facts.
Once Zach finished talking he came down and sat on the vacant chair in front of me, not knowing how I feel about him, this made me lose my appetite. After around 28 minutes of pushing food around my plate I got up and left, heading towards the passageway behind the tapestry to clear my head, when I was stopped by a deep, husky voice there in the hall, "I thought I'd find you here." Despite all of my training, he still managed to make me jump and his voice still managed to give me shivers. In my haste was I really that predictable or sloppy as to get caught so soon, or was it just because Zach is the one person in the world who really understood me, who really knew me?
"What are you doing here Zach?" I asked a little fed up with everything going on. "What, after 8 years all the reception I get is this, Gallagher Girl I-"
"Exactly, after 8 years Blackthorne boy," and all the emotion and hurt I've been feeling for 8 years came spilling out of me, "8 years of me searching, 8 years of me being alone, 8 years of me thinking you were dead! Zach it's been 8 years of me thinking I would never find you and the last memory I have of you is you getting shot and then me blacking out! All this time you have been alive and didn't once think that I had a right to know! I loved you Zach, after 8 years don't you think I at least deserve an explanation! How did you escape, what have you been doing for the last 8 years?" Before I realized it, the questions I had been asking myself slipped out, "Why didn't you look for me? Did you not think I deserved to know that the one person who I opened up to, who I truly loved, was still alive? I can't take this, I just I can't" I hadn't noticed that I was sitting on the ground with my back against the wall. What I did notice was that Zach was still standing in the same position with a look of worry and confusion, but mostly longing and remorse. He had some explaining to do.
"Cam, look I can explain everything just not here, I only got you back, I don't want to lose you again."
"How do you know you have got me back? You think that after 8 years I will just jump back into your arms and say it's all better? I could have moved on, I could be married for all you know."
"Your eyes," he finally said, "I can see it in your eyes, it's the same look that I saw in Japan before I blanked out, your afraid, in Japan you were afraid of losing me but now your afraid of letting me back in meaning that you still care."
As he said this I grew scared, Zach was back after 8 years, I was scared of losing him again or of him having moved on, but mostly I was scared because he was right.