Self harm is envolved!!! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!!
You had been on tour with the guys for a couple of months now and although things appear to look great on the outside, inside you weren't doing so well. You've had problems with self harm in the past and as of late your depression seemed to have been getting worse and worse. One night after the show a group of girls backstage approached you while you were helping Sehun with his gear. "Hi Sehun!" one if the girls blurted. "Can we help you with that?", they asked flirtatiously. "Uh no thanks. Y/n's got me. Isn't that right y/n?" You looked up at him and nodded smiling half heartedly. A light blush creeping on your cheeks. "Yeah, I gotcha", you replied. Sehun was really sweet. The other girls looked at you harshly and made snide comments under their breath as they left to the other side of the stage. "Hey y/n," Sehun began, " Don't worry about those girls. They're just mad. You're doing great." His nice words were comforting in the moment but in the back of your mind the comments that the other girls made stuck to you deeply. You helped Sehun finish putting on his gear before he got on stage. You rubbed your wrist as you wished him luck. He looked at you a little concerned. "You gonna be okay?", he asked before he went on stage. "Yeah, I'll be fine. Good luck." He still looked concerned but he nodded and gave a half smile before going onstage with the rest of the guys.
Later that night~
After their set was over, the guys came back stage to celebrate. You on the other hand weren't in a celebratory mood. The girls who were back stage kept harassing you and making you feel worse and worse. "I won't let them get to me... I won't let them get to me", you kept repeating to yourself but your words seemed to be of no use. You still had the urge to bring the blade to your skin. You left the stage and went back to the bus. Back in your bunk you looked beneath all of your things and found your old 'safety' kit. You swore to yourself that you'd never use it again but your depression became too overwhelming. You needed some way to let it all go. You went to the bathroom and closed the door leaning against it. You took out the blade and held it between your fingers. "I don't wanna do this...", you whispered to yourself. "I don't wanna do this... But I need to." You let the blade slide across your forearms. Making little cuts here and there little beads of blood starting to form with ever new cut you made. You took a deep breath and set the blade on the sink. Watching the blood as it seeped through your new wounds. You closed your eyes and silently let a few tears fall down your face. "Y/n" you heard Sehun's voice calling you. You broke and started to cry harder. There was a knock on the door. "Y/n, are you alright? Can I come in?" He asked sounding more concerned. You scooter away from the door and tucked your head into your knees as Sehun slowly pushed his way into the bathroom. "Oh my god Y/n!!!" He shouted looking at you he crouched down to where you were sitting and took in the whole sight. He was in shock. He picked you up and took you to his bunk being careful as to not touch any of your raw flesh. You started to calm down, but but your tears kept falling. Sehun went back to the restroom to get some first aid things. He cleaned your arms carefully and wrapped them so the others wouldn't see. "Sehun", You whispered holding back a sob. He shushed you taking you into his arms and holding you close. You sat there for a long time and cried in his arms. When you were done you lookup at his face. You could tell that he had been crying too. "Sehun-" "y/n don't apologize ok. Just...promise me that you'll never do it again... Ok?" He paused and took a deep breath then he looked at you. " I know sometimes things get bad, and I don't know how bad they have been but I know this is not the way to deal with them. I care about you. I know all the guys love having you apart of the crew. We want to be there for you. Whatever is hurting you, I promise it won't hurt forever. I'll be here anytime you need me as often as I can. But this..." He takes your hands and extends your arms as much as he can without hurting you. "This can't go on. It's gotta stop. I don't know how long you've been doing this, it doesn't matter. You just have to PROMISE that from this moment on, I'll never see you this way again... Ok y/n? You gotta promise me." You Look at him through glassy eyes and say "I promise". He hugs you tighter and gives you a light kiss on the forehead. "We're gonna get through this y/n. You don't have to do it alone." The both of you sat in his bunk for a little while later till the rest of the gang caught up to you guys in the bus. But unsteady of going out with all the other guys, you and Sehun stayed behind and watched movies in the lounge. You were grateful for Sehun and being apart of the band's life. He always stuck by you and made sure you never felt like you were alone ever again.
