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DRUG ADDICTION PT1 One thing in common from two different worlds.
Aaliyah POV Jan 7, November 3rd Asliyah's room
I need time to sleep. I felt like I couldnt breathe. I need time to think but my mind was scattered. I opened my dresser and took out four xans. At this point I dont care if I overdose I just wanted peace. ~she a drug abuser from a broken heart.
Nba Youngboy POV
Three hours into this party and all I wanted to do was leave. So many people came to see me but I couldnt take it anymore. I was paranoid and still felt alone. I spit on lean as I popped my forth perk.
I smiled as I was approached by fans I wonder if they knew it was easier to live their life than to live mine. The after party was suppose to he about me. People came to see me spent money on this shit. I tried to keep it 100 and it worked everyone looked like they were enjoying it. Life of the party.
It soon ended. My brothers were also with me. The only ones I got. They the only thing that was with me before money. ~Used to wash my clothes inside the sink now now a young nigga walk on mink.
I looked around. Gotta make sure these pussy niggas don't kill me. Everybody a opp in this bitch in my eyes. Never know when you finna get caught. If you know me you know I'm always aware.
Some people looked suspicious. I ain't in the mood to kill niggas. I'm in the mood to heal. A young nigga hurting but pain only stops at death.
I got in my half a million car and toke off.
Aaliyah POV
For some reason I woke up out of my sleep. I was shaking like a bitch.
I'm glad I live by myself. I just got up, grabbed my shoes and left. I walked down to the lake.
"Goodnight," a young lady said jogging past me.
I felt as if I talked I was finna cry. I just need someone to talk to me. I knew she probably thought I was being rude but I'm so fucking hurt.
I sat down by the lake. I looked at the bottle I carried around. Maybe I'm kinda weird for carrying around a bottle that was mixed a pills that can purposely kill me. I don't know.
I just wanted to end it all but I just wanted to feel peace and loved for the first time and that shit ain't finna never happen.
I closed my eyes and breathed in. I wonder what would it be like to just live a rich and famous life. Even one where I had money. I could buy things to distract me from pain. I'm sick of being broke. I'm not broke because I don't have a job I'm broke because I help the ones around me and forget about myself.
Everyone talks about people have it way worst but never way better.
NBA Youngboy
~On the ride, cool riding round with the top down. No where to go to decided that I'll just ride round. Wonder how it is to ain't have nothing but still living to get something. I have everything but love.
People think people love me but I can't feel it. I stopped at a red light. I ain't like it. I ain't like being here. I'm over it. I gotta be what people want me to be. A thug but somehow show don't emotions so they won't label me as pussy.
I ain't know what got in me but I sped past the red light. I can't stop. It felt better. I felt more alive. Not feeling the right emotions. It felt better to feel something other than being dead inside.
I saw a girl in the distance and immediately started to hit breaks. I ain't planning to take another life tonight but mine.
Aaliyah POV
My eyes was closed and I just focused on meditating. I felt the need to open my eyes and looked behind me and saw a car coming my way.
I ran as fast as I could and some how ended up in the lake. Oh good. I guess God is saying I'm taking too long to kill my self. He finna do this shit himself.
I got water all in me. You know what I'm finna just go where the River take me. I'm done.
"Fuck," I heard from a male voice and a car opening.
I put my whole body under the water hoping I would drown.
I let the water come inside my body and tried to fight my body from resistance. It's hard doing this when you can swim. Water came through my nose and went down my lungs. I couldn't breathe.
Finally my pain is will be gone. It kinda felt good knowing that it will all over.
I felt myself being dragged out of the water. My body was too weak to fight back. I just laid there with my eyes closed. Suddenly, I was at a stop,
I opened my eyes to see a man in front of me.
I couldn't move or really think. My vision was kinda blurry.
"You okay?," he asked
I tried to talk but it sounded like I let out a moan. Ever near death its feel embarrassing. I started to cough up water.
NBA Youngboy.
Seeing her I don't why for some reason I felt bad. Now that's another burden that finna be on my chest. She finna see who I am and recognize me then sue.
I helped her sit up and she coughed up the water. I'm just trying to see if she is okay and dip. I can't chance no more shit.
She ain't pretty but she ain't ugly. At least right now.
"Why," she asked
"Why what," I asked
"Why you helped me,"
"Come on hoe this ain't no movie. You okay. Can I leave," I asked
"Yes," she said surprisingly.
I got up and went back into my car.
Aaliyah POV
I don't want no help. I don't want to be here. At all.
That wasn't help.
I'm glad he just left because I ain't want to bring nomore attention to myself.
I heard footsteps coming back to me.
Shaking my head.
"What," I said
He raised his eyebrows.
"I just saved you from drowning," he said
"No you didn't I wanted too. Can you leave," I asked
"What ever you going through. I hope it get better," he said giving me a hoodie.
"Use that as a towel," he added
I toke hoodie and he sat down next to me.
"Don't get too comfortable," I said.
He ignored me.
"You got to stop doing drugs," I said to him. Noticing his eyes and his hands shaking.
"You know who I am," he asked
"No but I know you got a drug addiction," I said
"That makes two of us," he said shaking my bottle of pills.
