Lost Love

Chapter 1

"Onika"

   I walked out on to the front porch with my hot coffee in hand, I tugged my thick cardigan closer to me to keep warm from the cold harsh Canada winters. It was almost the holidays, I loved the holidays but this time I was going to spend it alone. My parents were going out the country to The Bahamas and my friends all had plans of their own. After I had enough of the coldness I quickly walked back inside and shut the door shivering in the process. I walked straight to the living room and laid on the couch, I put a blanket over me for the extra warmth. This house felt so empty, it used to not be so quiet. I had the love of my life with me and that's all that mattered. Times like this I wish Aubrey was here with me to keep me warm, I miss him so much it hurts. He was the best thing that happened to me, we were high school sweethearts everyone looked up to us, to them we were the most "perfect" couple. We planned on getting married, starting a family of our own but everything changed, he changed. One day he just left without any explanation and never looked back. I haven't heard from him since, that was three years ago. I don't know why I stayed in this house, I honestly didn't want to leave, leave all the memories behind. I didn't want to leave because even after three years I was hopeful he'd walked back through that door and everything would be okay, we'd be okay. But I guess that's all just wishful thinking. I got snapped out of my thoughts when I heard a light knock on the door, I usually never got any visitors so it was weird. I quickly got off the couch wrapping the blanket around myself and went to answer the door. I looked through the peephole to see who it was before answering the door. When I saw who it was I was completely shocked and confused what was Aubrey's mom doing here. So many thoughts started running through my mind. I started to get nervous. I opened the door and there she was, she smiles and embraces me for hug that I was completely thrown off by but I hugged her back. I didn't realize how much I missed her until that moment. We let go, and I let her inside. We make our way to the kitchen and I go to make her a cup of coffee. I hand her the mug, and we sit at the table as silence overtook, neither one of us wanted to speak first and it was very obvious. "Sandi, what are you doing here? I haven't seen you in over three years." I asked her just to break the silence "Is Aubrey okay." I could feel my heart beat getting faster as I asked her nervously. She takes a small sip of her coffee before answering . "Yes Dear he's perfectly fine." I was relieved but I still didn't understand what she was doing here no one from his family bothered to check up on me since Aubrey left. "I just wanted to stop by and check up on you." She says with honesty and a slight smile. "I know I haven't been around and I'm sorry. what Aubrey did to you wasn't right and I should've been here to check up on you once in a while." I wasn't mad at her I could never get upset at Sandi, she was like a second mother to me. She loved and cared for me just like if I was her own. "It's alright I'm not upset with you , it's just been lonely and I've but good managing myself around here, still hard to get used to." I could feel myself starting to cry, I really didn't want to cry in front of her but it was hard not to. "I really miss him." I say softly as the tears run down my face, after three years I'm still hurt and confused, he did this to me and he was okay with that. "I'm sorry dear I really am, I wish I had the answers for you but I don't. He doesn't really talk about what happened and I've just learned to let it go and not ask." She says rubbing my back comforting me as much as she could. "He'll come around eventually, he loves you. He never stopped loving you." I wipe my tears as I'm listing to what she's saying I looked at her with hurt in my eyes. "If he loved me he would've been back by now, I haven't gotten a text, a phone call, nothing.  please don't tell me that he loves me because it's clear that he doesn't anymore." So many emotions were running through me I couldn't control it, I just let everything out in front of her as she held me while I cried. This was the most comfort I've gotten in a long time and it felt nice. "Why don't you come over on Christmas Day, I'm making dinner and everyone would be happy to see you." Sandi says, I was very hesitant to say yes but I eventually gave in and said yes. We continued to talk and catch up on life, it was nice having company over I really didn't want it to end. Sandi ended up staying for an hour or so before she had to leave. I walk her to the front door and we say our goodbyes and I watch as she gets in her car and drives off shutting the door. I go straight to my bedroom and close the door, getting into bed and laying there until I eventual fall asleep.

Hello everyone, I really hope you enjoyed this so far. This is my first time writing so I'm about nervous to put it out. Please let me know what you think, I'd really appreciate it..!