I sigh and sit back in my chair after finishing my homework for the final time. This is it. I'm really going to do it tonight. But where..? I thought to myself as I recalled locations where I could end my life. Hm...there's the Karasuno campus, but I don't want the last thing I see to be the school where I was bullied for being a "freak". There's also throwing myself into the ocean, but if I were to be saved, I don't want to make it easy. You know what? Fuck it. I'll just jump off the roof of Karasuno. I don't give a damn if I get caught. Might as well make a scene and be remembered than have my body found but no one caring. I set my notebook/diary on the table and write a short Suicide note. I tear out the page and stuff it in my pocket before leaving my house for the final time...Or so I thought "Tsukki? Where are you going at this hour" my older brother looks at me, raising a brow in suspicion "Uhhh...I'm going to Yamaguchi's place" FUCKING GOOD JOB, ME! Now I look even more suspicious! "At this time of night? Are you sure..?" I start sweating and rub the back of my neck out of habit, the sleeve of the shirt I was wearing rolling down my thin arm just slightly enough for Akiteru to see a scar or two. Sure enough, he grabs my other arm and rolls my sleeve up "W-Wait! Don't-" before I can finish, my scarred arms are revealed to both my older brother, and to my mom. "What the hell..?" Akiteru grabbed my shoulders roughly "...How long has this been going on?!" I just gave a small smile as my brother's grip loosened enough for me to go to the door "How can you be so happy about this?!" Once my shoes were on, I opened the door and turned my head to look at my brother and mother "...I'm not happy, I'm just smiling..." And with that, I was out the door. I sighed, slamming the door behind me and running to Yamaguchi's house to leave the note there. I grabbed a pebble from the front garden, put the note under it so it wouldn't blow away, knocked on the door then ran straight to the Karasuno campus building, hopefully for the last time.
Yamaguchi's perspective
I heard my mom call from my room "Tadashi! Tsukishima left a note here...you better read it" I blinked a couple times and closed my textbook then went downstairs to see what my mom had called me out for "What's up?" When I got a good look at her face, she was crying. But she was silent as she was handing me the note.
Dear Yamaguchi Tadashi, I'm sorry. I just can't do it anymore. I'm going to jump off the Karasuno campus building tonight. Don't come for me. I know that if you walk, it'll be too late for me. But if you run, you could die because of your Asthma, and I don't want that for you. You have so much you could do with your life, and I don't want you to cut it short because of me. So please, whatever you do...don't come to save me. I don't deserve it anyway. I love you, and I want to see you happy...but it won't be with me...so, If you're reading this, which you probably are. Find someone new, someone who's mentally healthy...and...thank you for the memories... With all love, Tsukishima Kei.
I started reading as the tears threatened to fall. I shook my head and started making my way towards the front door "Tadashi?! Where are you going?" I looked at her with a determined smile "I'm going to save my friend" her eyes widened, but the two of us shared a knowing nod, as I left my house and started sprinting towards Karasuno. Tsukki...I don't care if you're suicidal, I love you for you! And no matter what happens, no matter where you are, and no matter who you're with...if you're hurting...I'll run to you. My lungs were on fire, and my legs were screaming in agony, but I didn't care. All I wanted was to save my friend because he needs me right now, and that's ok. I...I've never ran this far in my whole life...I can feel my lungs are so close to giving out...I think to myself as I reach the floor just before the Roof doors. Just a little more...I'm almost there. I throw the roof doors open, right as Tsukishima is about to haul himself over the fence "TSUKKI!!!!!" I cry out with what little strength my lungs have left, and thankfully it was enough to get him to turn around "I...Yamaguchi...y-you came..? Even with your condition-" I was so pissed, yet relieved that I made it in time "Screw my condition! You really think I wouldn't come running if you were about to kill yourself?! Of course I would!! I love you too, dammit!" I couldn't say anymore. My legs gave out and I fell forwards, right into Tsukishima's arms. "You...You fucking dumbass..." Tsukishima Smiled at me and kissed my forehead, giving me time to catch my breath, but it wasn't enough, as my vision was starting to black out "Tadashi..? Are you ok..?!" I smiled and buried my face in his chest "Well, if I'm gonna die, at least it's in the arms of the man I love..." I couldn't say anything else again, and my whole world went dark.
Tsukishima's perspective No...Dammit..! I knew this was going to happen!! I laid Yamaguchi down and checked for his breathing, which was still there, although very faint. I couldn't waste any time, or I would lose him forever. I grabbed his chin and nose before pressing my lips onto his, performing Mouth-to-Mouth for the first time in my life. And to my surprise, when I pulled away, Yamaguchi's head tilted to the side and he started coughing. "Tadashi..!" I sighed in relief and sat him up once he caught his breath "Are...are you ok now..?" I asked, still concerned for my freckled friend "Yeah, I'm ok now...no thank to you. You saved my life!" I did my usual smug smirk, although a little crooked and pressed his forehead against mine "I know I can't give you long kisses because of your condition, but this works for now, right?" Yamaguchi Smiled and closed the gap between our lips for the first time "Mm?!" I blinked in surprise before connecting my hand with his and closing my eyes and putting my other hand around his waist. I pulled away first because I didn't want to accidentally kill him or make him pass out "..No more of this, ok, Tsukki..?" I was a little confused because the question was a little odd "Ok so I have to spell it out for you...Alright. If you hurt you, I'm gonna hurt me. You don't want me to..? Then stop doing this bullshit where you're mean to yourself and hurting the beautiful person that I love..." my eyes went wide as my cheeks flared up, but after a couple seconds, I smiled and nodded "...alright...I promise I'll get better, because I want to be healthy for you..." I stood up, bringing the smaller male up with me and into my arms "I love you, Tadashi..." I felt him smile and put his arms on my back "I love you too...wanna go back to my place and watch that dinosaur documentary we always watch..?" I smiled and poked his nose with my finger "yeah, that sounds good" We both nodded and started walking towards Yamaguchi's house. Now I remember why I wanted to stay alive for so long...I think to myself as I grip Yamaguchi's hand.
Bonus with Yamaguchi's mom :3 I heard that same Dinosaur documentary playing through Yamaguchi's TV. They watch it every single time Tsukishima comes over. I mean it's cute, but now I can quote the whole thing from memory alone! I sigh and walk into Yamaguchi's room to tell them to keep it down, but instead of seeing Yamaguchi sitting next to Tsukishima with Tsukishima's eyes sparkling, I saw the two of them curled up in each other's arms. I smiled and took a picture then sent it to Tsukishima's mom, who I've been friends with since grade school who no doubt showed it to Akiteru.
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I'll just turn off the TV while I'm in here. I thought to myself as I turned the TV off and put a blanket over my son and his future husband before I left the room, turning off the lights and closing the door behind me.
