I would share with you this story 17 years ago. I could remember the feeling so I'll have it in my memory as always.
I had a childhood crush. When I was in preparatory I liked a guy because he's smart and goodlooking. In fact, he's my best friend's crush. It just happened that I also liked him, too, because that was the time the word "crush" was introduced to me.
I was a transferee/new student that time. I had no friend. I even cried. But these school servicemate of mine happened to be my classmate.
She has been my friend ever since. I don't know what crush is before. I also have little idea of what love is. I don't know what's the feeling of having a crush that time. I'm just ignorant that time. She told me her crush was our escort, and classmate as well. When I looked at him. I see him as energetic, fun, man and (goodlooking.) These are just the reason my friend gaved me.
Well, he claimed the position of being an escort. Anyway, it was just a puppy crush and so, I wouldn't look weird.
But things happened fast. He's not the only man in the world.
I am really dumfounded because my servicemate started teasing me to another servicemate and I don't know when it freaking started. Really? I am so embarassed and the one who's teasing me are women three years older than me.
I was also obsessed with rings before that I started wearing one, I had lot of rings before that I eventually lost because of my carelessness. I even make paper rings because I was desperate to wear a ring.
But, that time I had a silver ring, I guess my mother gaved me. She likes to accessorize me with silvers that I eventually lose xd
My school service would arrive to pick me up in the morning as early as 6 am, dang!
And I was quite, was I looking forward to see him? Lol.
He just lived nearby, my school's service pick me up first, and our school service is really that long for all of us to fit in but why does it feel like we're inch closer?
What was I thinking? Anyway, when we arrived ofcourse to pick him up he sitted near besides me. It's spacious but he sitted in front of me not at my back. I wonder if that happens a lot...
and also it was quiet, that time I could also remember the conductor teasing me for having lots of dogs at home i swear i couldn't count the the dogs we had before they're in front of our house I guess five big dogs, a k9 look alike dog that is so scary but I was able to tame and some pitbull some spot dog and more dogs on our garage two they also get some babies.
I miss the dogs sorry. We have now btw xD
Do you want me to continue the story i just think the dogs were nice. Lol.......
Anyway, I'll cut this short I'll make part II......
So,when we already picked him up at their house and we also p8cked up my bully schoolmate who's house is just a stone's throw away from my ex crush.(did i just called him ex crush. I honestly don't know how to name him and if it was he was even worth giving a name).. They saw the ring I was wearing, then they assumed that it was given by him. Ivan? David? I couldn't really remember his name, he's like a ghost to me. In fact, I could remember he has a white skintone. His hair is black. But, I couldn't remember his face clearly like all of the people. Was I so embarassed to look at him that time? I forgot. I think he had an eyeglasses but the possibilities is 30%.
So, my bully school service mate started teasing saying the ring was from him and saying "Ayie" alot of times. I don't know wtf was I doing I'm so embarassed and even I told them the truth they still insisted that it came from him. He was there ofcourse, listening. They were reffering to him and I also want to mention he was a year older than me. Cool, right? 🙂 I'm prep, he's in grade one.
Next thing that happened? Actually, we seldomly see each other. I was busy on my studies and for sure he is as well. The only memories I could remember was handful, too.
Next thing is our examination day. I am sure cuz my bag that time was a small body bag with a Barney design. It was really made for a child like me.
It's time to go home. The school bus was packed. We're squeezed like a sardines.
I'm near the doorway of our school bus and I saw him again he's on the same seat just farther. I'm on the left side. He's on the right side, near the passenger seat.
I think we looked at each other and then, I'm not sure he asked someone to pass a paper to me.(Don't you think that was sweet?) I can't really remember if we talked.
I'm not sure if I was bad that time, was I not open-minded? l was scared and crazy that time. My neighbor, she was a close (like a family). They're my mom's friend. She was with me on that school bus. (Exactly, beside me. Filipinos are like that very generous. They let her ride with us.)
As I mentioned, I'm feeling lots of emotion that time. I was scared of what's inside the letter and scared my neighbor would read it.
So, I hid it from her and read it. If I was even good at hiding lol.
Then I think what I only understand in that paper was a confession. A freaking I love you said in Tagalog and my heart just went to a rush. When I got home, I'm sure of it...
I was happy..
I guess I was up in the air I don't really cared. I wrote down on my half sheet pad paper my reply.I love you, too written in Tagalog so, that I could send it to him the next day. My mother arrived and I just put myself together. I hid the paper I was planning to put in my Barney bag (that's so childish). So, that I could send it tomorrow but my mom saw my the paper im hiding on my hand. She probably taught it was a quiz and I was hiding a failed grade. Like I never got a failing grade in my school since I study at school and I also study at home.
I said to mom, "nothing" in Tagalog. Then, I went to the comfort room planning to throw the paper away. (I'm not good at hiding)
But my mom called me. Told me that she wants to see the paper and yeah I'm screwed.
As soon as I gave that freaking letter I just ranaway and hid in the kitchen.
I heard her said some words but I only try to erased it on my mind.
Since then, I think I wasn't able to give him the letter. That was the last communication we had.
Since, he also bursted like a bubble. I meant he transferred to a new school service nd I'm pretty sure he was still in the same school. But I couldn't remember, now.
