Wished For A Reset Button 2

the call

The front desk people came to my room

them: uh jay you have a visitor

jay: o-okay

they put me in handcuffs and took me downstairs
 
they un cuffed me and I saw

 

Maria
 


I ran up to her and hugged her

she started crying and and giggling in joy

jay: I missed you so much they told me you didn't make it

Maria: I did make it I made it the day after they told you I didn't make it

Maria: jay I went to heaven
 
jay: w-what y-you went to heaven

Maria: y-yes jay I... I-i did i-i went to heaven I wanted you to come with me for a little i-it was..... so.... beautiful jay

Maria: it had a lot of white and golden gates, beautiful snow White clouds,I saw the beautiful lights from the sky you've always wanted to see

jay: y-you did you saw the light I wished to see
 
Maria: yes I did

jay: oh my god

I hugged her tightly
 
Maria: I saw celebrities that were dead I saw my grandma I even saw my great grandpa's and great grandma's

jay: d-did you see my idols

Maria: yes I saw Selena, Aaliyah, and Tupac
 
jay: oh my g-god
 

we sat down and started talking

Mari: uh your dad wants to see you but he's scared you won't except him 

jay: I'm not gonna except him

Mari: jay please

jay: Maria giacomos dad lynched, burned, tortured my grandpa and giacomos helped do you know how much my grandpa meant to my dad and me and my dad doesn't even know that because he is to busy for giving him
 
Mari: jay t-that was the p-p-
 
jay: what is it the past that's what you were gonna say

Mari: y-yes

jay: I don't think you people know what my life is about or how I want to fucking live

Mari: jay i-i I do it's j-just

jay: what

Mari: I want you to not think about the past ever and just be happy

jay: you want the best for me but that can't happen

I whispered to her
 
jay: I have over 13 mental problems and I can't fucking control my strength or what my mind fucking tells me how am I suppose to be happy 

Mari: I don't know I just want to love you and you to love me and not be hurt

I sighed
 
I sat back
  
How does she want me to be happy a person that I love is telling me they want me happy
 
I don't know if she means it though because my dad or more doesn't mean it

Giacomo is about to kill him and he doesn't even know probably
 
mom let her boyfriend ruin my life and hers together 

Earth hates me
 
and now she's saying she love me and she wants me to be happy

ugh life

I looked at her and she looked at me and her eyes were filled with sadness and just confusion in a heart broken way
 
I interlocked her fingers with mine and just sat there

I looked at the window and saw the dark sky
 
ugh

jay: you know.... I didn't know that my life was gonna come out this way I just waited for my happiness to come and when it came my mom left my dad and he just sat there watching us leave with his hands on his head just watching us walk away with sadness

jay: that day I knew that my life was gonna end 

jay: she dated men that tried to act like him they were mean, strict, abusive, narcissistic, and just filled with pure selfishness
 
jay: I hated it it hurted me bad when my dad went to the hospital when I was 5 years old they told my mom he was dead but I knew he wasn't because now I know that he wanted it that way for her to make her hurt

Jay: the day when I left him I was 4 years old only 4 years old it hurt me in a way that I am hurt now

Mari: i-i didn't know that jay

Jay: there is a lot you don't know

jay: there is a lot

Mari: I'm sorry jay

jay: dont apologize it's my fault anyways

Mari: how
 
jay: nothing
 
She sighed
 
I just put my head down I put my hands on my face

I messed up really bad very very bad

I ruined my mom's life,my dad's life, my life, Maria's life, everyone's life

I just want to live but die
 
I'm gonna die alone
 
just like that

like that

right

hpm

uh

 
Guard: visiting hours are over sorry
 
Maria watched them handcuff me

a tear went down her eyes as she put her head down

they took me to my room

they un cuffed me and put me in the room

Tia: took you long I was bored in here
 
I just looked out the window
 
Tia: what wrong with you

No response
 
He came close to me
 
Tia: what's wrong he says touching my back

jay: nothing

Tia: something is wrong and I know it
 
jay: nothing is wrong
 
Tia: something is wrong
 
jay: NOTHING IS WRONG GOD DAMNIT

he looked at me and just went back on his bed
 
jay: I'm sorry 

Tia: i-its okay I get it you don't want to he bothered
 
jay: yeah

I sensed him staring at me

I looked up and he was 

he was staring at me looking all over my face and my body

I noticed and covered myself

And turned around

Tia: why would you cover yourself

No response

Tia: jay

Tia: jay

Tia: JAY

Jay: what
 
Tia: why would you cover yourself
 
jay: because I want to
 
Tia: no its something else

Tia: what is it

Tia: jay what is it

Tia: what is it

jay: I'M INSECURE OKAY

Tia: I just want to talk to you without you yelling at me

I sighed in annoyance and put my hand on my face leaning over kneeling down with my back bent 

 

 
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