ill sit in the rain with you. (tsukkiyama)

ill sit in the rain with you.

TW: Self-Harm , Suicide Attempt , Pills , Angst

Read at your own risk and be safe everyone!

Yamaguchi Tadashi wakes up in a sweat, he doesn't know why, nor where he is since all he can see is black and blue spots. After a few seconds he finds himself laying on the bathroom floor, he can't feel any part of his body.

It suddenly comes flooding back to him...

pills

He manages to turn his head enough to catch a glimpse of a empty pill bottle with one or two pills lying around it.

Now Tadashi didn't know how long ago but he remembers what he did, why he's laying like this on the cold, white tile of his bathroom.

He starts cussing himself out. He can't tell if he is actually murmuring the words, or if it's just in his head since he still can't feel most parts of his body.

After laying there for what seemed like hours he was able to move his hand to pick up the suicide note lying next to his head and his phone right next to that.

The time was 7:23am. He has realized the brightness coming from his window and wondered why his parents hadn't woken him up since the dim screen light of his phone said Monday on it. Then he realized his parents were gone until Tuesday, and then again remembered his whole ordeal and why he was laying on the bathroom floor.

He had done this because his parents were away, he wanted them to have fun for a few days until they found his dead corpse laying on the ground.

But there was this awful feeling inside of him, he had just tried to commit suicide the night before, and woke up completely alone.

No one was there to comfort him or help him, he felt a mix of guilt, anger, and complete emptiness, the last one was nothing new though.

He knew he had school that day, and if he didn't go, the school would call his parents, who would call him, while he was still barley able to move or talk.

Luckily for him, on Monday's they got to be there 30 minutes late.

8:30, he thought.

"FUCK" he screamed out. His voice came out harsh and scratchy and his throat was killing him, his stomach hurt, and he was weak, too weak.

Tadashi tried to pull himself up by using the toilet directed behind him. He managed to get about halfway up and then his legs and arms, seemingly in sync, gave out at the same time.

He groaned in pain, although now he was sitting up against the wall.

He felt like he was being stabbed over and over again in the stomach, it wouldn't stop.

After a few minutes of Tadashi just sitting there, he started to drift off, until a buzz from his phone came. It was sitting in his lap, but he was afraid to look down at it.

After the screen had went dark, Tadashi tapped the screen lightly, and saw it was a text from Tsukki.

"Goddammit, why now" Tadashi mumbled.

From: Tsukishima Kei
7:56am
I need to get to school early today to ask a teacher about some homework, so I won't be able to walk with you this morning, sorry.

Tadashi let out a sigh of relief. "Thank god"

He could still only say a few words without anything really painful hurting, and he couldn't let Tsukki see him like this.