竜弦 IKIRU ៹ kuroo tetsurou

14 ─ ❛ikiru❜

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its been a year now, i still remember the words you uttered the night before you... left. although the endless nights of sobbing had stopped, i still thought about you every day. i really miss you. when you had told me to go live after your passing, i didn't quite process your words, i didn't know i would be needing to live without you, at least not this soon. i didn't go to the graduation ceremony because the thought of not having you there made me sick to my stomach.

you'd be laughing at me right now, with that hyena laugh of yours, who would've thought a guy like you would have a laugh like that? you would've told me to get up off the ground and take me somewhere to go have fun, you never did like seeing me down.

you wouldn't want me to sit here, crying for you, so i wiped my tears. what was the thing you told me that bokuto told you? something about meeting in another life. if that was so, i wish to meet you in every life after this one, i love you.

i wanted to run my fingers through that bed head of yours, i wanted to hear you laugh when i told a corny joke, i wanted to stay up late and binge watch old volleyball games with you, just one last time. but apparently that was too much to ask.

you're not here anymore.

but i'll try, tetsu, i'll try to live, even if it's without you.

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