Why, What, When,How, and I Don't Know

I'm sorry

I'm crying and you haven't noticed

My head is spinning while your sickly grin
Cracking your jokes and your smile

This twisted feeling is eating me whole, while your sitting there happily, full of soul

You have no regard for my broken spirit, I'm calling out but you can't even hear it

You want me to stay on track, on schedule, you want me to stay organized, clear, essential

But you clearly can't see beyond your own pride because if I were to stick to the plan.. tonight be the night I died

I'm sorry to all of you that I loved, I wish I could give you one final hug, but if we don't talk before my despair, remember I love you.. and I'll always be there