want you more than a melody ~ a larry au

prologue

Some people say that songwriting is one of the hardest things to do. You can't master it, everything has to be original, and above all it has to sound good. Not only is it mentally draining, but emotionally draining too. 

At least, the way I go about it is emotionally draining. 

I'm Harry Styles, a 17 year old song writer - and a hot mess. I've been writing music since I was a kid, and it's always come pretty easily for me. When I was younger I'd write about silly things, like skipping and dancing. As I've grown older, obviously my topics have matured. I've learned how to write based off of emotion, and that's what drives me to write everyday. Instead of ranting to a friend, like a normal human being, I write songs. I write songs practically everyday, and for the past 3 years they've all been about the same thing - Louis William Tomlinson. 

Now you're probably wondering, what's so special about this Louis guy?

And to that I say, what isn't?

He's quite possibly the most beautiful human to ever step foot on Earth. I'm not kidding, he really is. He's a 5'9 firecracker, with a heart of gold. He's the kindest, funniest, most exuberant, and excitable person I've ever met. I swear, his personality is addictive - and so are his looks. 

Louis is on the shorter side, but my God I think it's so cute. He wears vans almost everyday, with socks above the ankles that he likes to cuff like he does he jeans (and yes I already know what you're thinking, sweater weather is one of his favorite songs, take that as you will). With his vans, he always has a pair of jeans (usually ripped) and some kind of a band t-shirt, or a jean jacket. His style is great, and always accentuates this features perfectly. He's slim-fit, and hands down perfect. 

And yes, his style isn't the only great thing about him. He's beautiful. Simple as that. He has slightly tanned skin, and beautiful brown hair that I really, really, REALLY want to run my fingers through. His hair is cute and a little messy, but still manages to look good. Like effortlessly good, it's honestly a bit annoying. The most annoying thing about him though is his memorizing blue eyes. I swear they somehow change what shade of blue they are, they can be fucking electric one day and then a deep blue another. He's magical, I've been calling it for years - and the hair is so far my only proof, but hey I still have time to find more. 

Alright now that I've gone on a rant about how beautiful Louis is, you can probably tell how I feel about him. 

I love him. 

And yes, I know love is a big word - but I swear it's true. 

I lose my breath whenever I see him, my heart beats fast, the butterflies in my stomach go crazy, and I suddenly don't even remember my own name. Whenever I see him, that's all I see. In a room full of crowded people, he's the only person I notice. However, he doesn't really notice me. 

He and I have talked a bit these past few years, but we've never really been friends. I've fallen in love with him from afar, and whenever I get close it's just so scary. To tell you the truth, I kind of try to avoid talking to him. I just get so nervous and manage to run out of words, and then somehow it ends up in a song later that day. 

However this is my senior year, and I want to change that. I'm losing time to say something, before I know it he'll be outliving me at some college out of state - not even remembering that I exist. 

I'm promising myself now, that things will be different this year. 

I'm gonna talk to the boy I love, and pray to God that someday he'll feel the same way.