//Again, please play "214" by Rivermaya while reading this story. Thank you.
Am I real?
Do the words
I speak before you
Make you feel,
That the love I lay for you
Will see no ending?
"Babe!" I hurriedly hugged her as she walked out from the room. She seems so excited, I guess it goes well.
"How does it go?" I asked while encircling my arms towards her waist, as she hugs me so tight. Feels good. Having this kind of moment.
"Fine." she said, sniffing my neck. I smiled and kissed the top of her head.
"Want to go home or want to go somewhere?"
Everytime one of us is feeling nervous, we try to go somewhere to at least forget what happen or divert our attention to calm or to be at ease. But now, I want to take her home so that she can rest. This past few days, she really can't take a sleep for even just an hour for this. She was so scared she'll fail so she study a lot just to get ready. I understand though, even she had no time for me. It's her dream, I don't want to be a hindrance.
I'll support her no matter what.
"Let's go to church, I feel like I want to pray." she chuckled a little.
My baby's so nervous. I chuckled for what I think.
"Let's go."
Well if you look
Into my eyes
Then you should know,
That there is nothing
Here to doubt,
Nothing to fear,
And you can lay your questions down
Cause if you'll hold me
We can fade into the night
And you'll know
"Babe, I told you. It's nothing, we were just talking." I explained again. But she doesn't want to listen.
"Yeah just talking." she scoffed, rolling her eyes and pouts her lips.
See? She won't listen. So insecure. But I understand. Okay, I mean I know she's scared that I might replaced her with some other girl that I will talk to because I had that history. I was a playboy. Playing ladies heart and leave them. But I've changed! She changed me! Damn, girl. You tamed me!
So instead of explaining, I just hug her and kissed her neck, repeatedly. I let out a heavy sigh. I don't want to fight with her. I can't. The thought of us, fighting, scared me too. What if we had a fight and she thinks I have other girl and she'll leave me? Fuck, I can't take that.
The world could die,
And everything may lie,
Still you shan't cry
Cause time may pass,
But longer than it'll last
I'll be by your side
"I'm so tired, hmm." She mumbled as I hugged her.
She just finished her eight hours duty, and it's overnight. I can see dark circles under her eyes already but she still look good in my eyes. I always see her taking a nap while sitting everytime I fetch her in the waiting area of the hospital. I sighed, this is her dream but this, everytime I see her like this makes me want to stop her and just stay in our house. But I won't. This makes her happy, and I'll be happy for her, too.
Take my hand,
And gently close your eyes
So you could understand
That there's no greater love tonight
Than what I've for you,
Well, if you feel the same way for me,
Then let go
We can journey to a garden
No one knows.
Life is short my darling
Tell me that you love me
So we could fade into the night
And you'll know
"Good morning, love."
I was surprised hearing her voice, waking me up. The hell?
"I thought you're in your duty? You told me you'll be busy. Wha-how?"
She giggled at my questions. Well, I am surprised. She told me last night she can't make it because she needs to be in the hospital. I understand, yes, but can't she make a leave to be with me just for this day?
Still, I understand and stop myself to be demanding. But seeing her now in the morning and looking so wonderful in front of me makes me so damn happy.
"I take a leave. Happy anniversary!" she said smiling.
The world could die,
And everything may lie,
Still you shan't cry
Cause time may pass,
And everything won't last
But I'll be by your side,
Forever by your side,
Looking at her, smiling and have those sparks of joy in her eyes makes me happy. It was always what I want. To keep her happy. Everytime she'll go home with me, looking so tired after her shift, this is all I can give. I had always understand her feelings. I always prioritize her first.
The world could die,
And everything may lie,
Still you shan't cry
Cause time may pass,
And everything won't last
But I'll be by your side,
Forever by your side,
"I hope you will come, Adrian."
She said as she gave me the invitation. I wanted to laugh so hard, fuck it. I wasn't prepared for this. She's giving me their fucking wedding invitation, fuck. And she was hoping I will be there?
I think my body was in a numb. I wanted to cry in front of her, but I should not.
But of course, I will be there. This is for me, too. I also fucking hope this will help to stop loving her. It's been a year.
Forever by your side
Forever by your side
Still you shan't cry
"You may now kiss the bride." The priest said.
How I wish I was the man she'll marry.
I was there when she was struggling in her review.
I was always there for her.
I always understand her.
But I guess, that was all just in the past. I was just an instrument so she'll grow and be more mature. But it wasn't really for me. But I accept.
And now, I will still always be here for her. No matter what.
So you won't cry
