Sins

1.4

But even if I

fell in love again

with someone new,

it could never be

the way I loved you

-Unknown

How is it that the

person that gave you your

fondest memories

have now become a

memory themselves?

In a snap of a finger,

they up and leave

and are no longer

apart of your life.

You stay up all night

racking your brain for

answers.

You blame yourself

and

try to hate them,

but never can.

You stare at

old pictures

and

relive the memories

you two had.

You get drunk and

argue with yourself

on rather or not to call them.

You need closure

because you're

tired and dying.

You start to leave the

house less because you

hope that the

next knock

will be them

and once you open the

door that

they'll apologize

and say

they'll never leave you agian.

You hope and wish that

all of these fantasies

you made up will

come true, but

deep down you

know that they're

gone forever

and will

never come back,

but

hope

is what

keeps you going.

Everyone is worried

about you,

especially you best friend

because you're no

longer telling her anything.

You parents tell you

to go out more since

you keep staring at the

front door,

but they don't know that

you're waiting for a

miracle to happen.

Your older brother knows

your secret and wants to

tell your parents

why you've been so sad,

but you made him

promise

to never tell a soul.

He is mad at himself because

he doesn't know how to

help you

and those magical happy hugs

that the princesses

use to tell him to give

you when you were little

don't make you happy all of a

sudden anymore.

You cry until no more

tears can come and the

only sound is from your

Lana Del Rey playlist.

You feel at ease and

really listen to the lyrics

because you feel as if it's

your life in a three minute song.

Do you know that feeling?

Do you know that pain?

I don't think you do.