Beyoncé POV
"He's gone you can wake up now." Kehlani says and I instantly sit up and look at her
"That fool is stupider than he looks." I say and Kehlani chuckles and I giggle along with her
"No doubt he probably went to go see that young hoochie thang." I said and Kehlani stifles a laugh shaking her head sitting next to me
"Well listen baby how about we go on a date?" Kehlani asks and I look at her surprise most evident on my features
"Are you trying to get us caught?" I ask her and she shrugs with total disregard for my husbands feelings, his and my family feelings, and the well being of the children
"Bey imma tell you once and once only." Kehlani says stepping into my personal the smell of her mixed with my smell was driving me wild
"I feel like a horny ass teenager." I think to myself as Kehlani makes herself eye to eye level with me
"I don't give one, two shits, and three damns about a nigga who can't even recognize a real woman when he comes home to her everyday I know we need to be careful because this could be bad for your image in the upscale society, but I genuinely do not give a fuck baby I love you, I want you, I need you the moment I saw you at that bar all those years ago I knew it was you I wanted I didn't need a motherfucker to tell me because everything I ever wanted I've found it in you." Kehlani says and I could honestly feel myself tearing up
"How could you want me? I'm old and used up." I ask my voice cracking and I can't stop it and Kehlani takes my face in the palms of her hands so I'll directly at her
"Beyoncé Gisellse Knowles I'll beat your ass to the white meat if you speak another foul thing about yourself again, I know we're just getting reacquainted after us being apart for so long, but baby I promise you, You are worth it this man robbed you of your inner peace and now you're questioning your worth when you shouldn't even have "Am I good enough?" on your mind baby you are enough you're more than enough so please let me show you that." Kehlani says and at this point I was in full blown tears
Kehlani was absolutely right I let this man manipulate me, rob me of my young years, rob me of my adulthood and the longer I stay he'll just keep draining me I can't do this to myself it's scary to start over, but I have trust that Kehlani won't do me like he does
"Okay." I nod wiping my tears with her help and she smiles at me peppering my face with gentle pecks I could feel myself genuinely smile for the first time in years and it's all because of her, but I can't put on her to make me happy I need to find myself again
The first step is by getting out of this damn marriage
I look at Kehlani and she smirks licking her lips
"Ooouuu you got that fire in your eyes what's the plan?" Kehlani and I smile as I discuss what I need her to do
