What does this word mean to you. Pain, Heartache, Sadness, Death, Etc.
Everyone has different past but there is one thing, we all did something we regret an now for some of us it still keeps us up at night or keeps us from our future.
When we were kids we all wished for something that will cost our parents tons of money or we dream to big. Never listen to anyone when they say "if you wish hard enough your dream will come true"
People say the past stays in the past, But does it really stay in the past?. not for many people, they still live in the past due to the stupid shit they did as a kid, or they are to far deep in the stupid shit that they cant find their way out no matter who helps.
Others it may look like they have moved on from their past but in their mind they are suffering everyday an they push people away due to it. Others will put up walls scared of letting people in scared of making that mistake again or is scared to let them in.
My past wasn't anything special, my mother was a drug addict so me an my sisters suffered from it, I ended being the black sheep of the family making me a outcast, when I left that family to my fathers things didn't get any better. I was hated by my step mother because I wasn't her kid but when they separated she started acting nicer, Long story short i'm now living a better life after i left because where i'm from there was nothing but nothing but painful memories an loneliness.
We all suffer from something in our past that we hide from the people who we care about because we don't want them to judge us for it even though they might have gone through the same or almost something like it. We think with our mind before opening up to the people an tell them our past because we don't know if they will judge us painfully or welcome us with open arms.
When we finally do, we feel a weight lift off our back because we know that they can now understand why we do what we do when we are hurt or stressed. They will either accept it or leave but if they leave its not the end of the world it just means that they aren't meant to be in our future or even in our lives.
Sometimes that's a good thing because we never know how they will act in the future or if they are even good for our future but that is something only time will tell.
