Those Boys

Chapter Five

Autumn's POV

Those dark, deep, passionate, eyes that stared back at me had 'caused a deep red blush appearing on my cheeks. I don't know why I'm so intrigued over someone I just met days ago. The tingling sensation that trickles down my spine, every time he says something to me makes me so confused. Why am I feeling like this? This tingling sensation that I could not control. It didn't take no Einstein to figure why I'm feeling like this.

I was falling in love. 

But something holds me back when it comes to love. Something that punctured my heart for so long, that it was permanently placed on my heart. I need to stop thinking about this topic - I can't bear it.

Inhaling deeply, I looked down to the ground as Niall stared at me more. ''Done yet?'' I interrupted him aimlessly. He looked back with a blush, ''S-sorry'' 

I nodded slowly before walking back to our campsite where the four boys waited patiently for us. ''You're back,'' Harry grinned. ''Yeah..'' I reply back, still in deep thought. I didn't want to ''mingle'' yet. I just wanted to sit on my tent and just stay there. Where all my thoughts couldn't be hidden. 

I fiddled with my petite fingers quietly, chewing my lips furiously. I needed my alone space. Away from the five hectic boys. A girl needs space when she needs it. Thinking that no one could hear me, I began singing to Edwin Mccain's ''I'll be''. 

The song brought back so many memories. 

The memories that I promised to remember, each day he was gone. 

A year ago, a boy came into my life and impacted my life. He was perfect. The way he luscious dark brown hair as it flew against the wind or the way his blue eyes twinkled when he sees me took me by surprise, and from that day on he capture my heart. We spent each day together and each day, we fell for each other more. 

But then, one thing changed that forever. 

He was driving home from work when a driver crashed into his car, 'causing it to flip over and crash into a ditch. He was sent to the hospital and stayed there for five days where he died after a cardiac arrest. 

The last words that he spoke to me before he was taken away never left my mind. It was kept hidden in my heart where I replay it everyday. 

''When I'm gone from this world, remember me as the boy who loved you so much that he'd die for. Every day I'm gone, always remember me with our song. Remember that song...''

Why is the song so important you ask? 

It was the song that was playing, when we first met at a local coffee shop in Wolverhampton where I visited my cousins.

Do you understand why it's so hard for me to fall in love now? Do you know realise what is holding me back from loving Niall?

I couldn't help but notice tears falling down freely down my sun-kissed skin. How sad am I? Crying over a boy who's gone. Pretty much whisked away from life. ''Autumn, are you alright?'' Louis asks me. 

I wipe the spilled tears quickly before nodding. ''I-I'm fine..'' 

He kneeled forward toward me, lifiting up my chin to make me look at him. ''You aren't.'' 

''Autumn, don't cry. Whatever it is, don't let it break you. You may be hurting right now inside, but five boys like us can easily pick you up.'' 

I shook my head, ''It's nothing Louis. I'm fine, I'm alright, I'm happy, and I'm okay,'' I smiled weakly at him before heading outside where I stood awkwardly.