Cured?

Chapter 4 My side

This is Tyler's perspective. Just wanted to add this little note to let you guys know. I hope you guys are enjoying it so far. I'm going to try and keep these little notes to a minimum. 

From the moment I saw her sleeping on the plane, to us walking to our hotel so much has changed. She was just this gorgeous girl. Her hair shimmered against the sun, her eyes the crystal ocean color. This girl could pull off anything, from airplane sweats to Club dresses. She had an amazing personality, When I first met her I never thought I would be in the same hotel as this crazy woman. The next night she came out looking so damn hot. That night I was so drunk, but when I saw her everything came into picture, maybe even literally, like I said I was drunk. The whole world paused for what felt like forever, until the guys got all rowdy with catcalling her and pushing me for saying how hot my roommate was, I remember saying she was drop dead sexy, I hope she didn't hear me. I got a little protective wondering where she was going all dressed like that, asking where she was going and as she said the festival. The boys all got up and headed out the door, I hope she didn’t mind us tagging along, but I really did not want her out alone that night. A couple hours later we were all hanging out, and Julianna was just too drunk, but being too drunk has never done too much harm, right? No, She completely exposed herself saying she was a survivor. I didn't think she could have had cancer, It's one of those things that you know people have, but it doesn't hurt as much until you know someone who has had it. I told the bartender no on another round of drinks, but by the time I realized what actually happened, Julie was gone, I ran out the door trying to see if I could see her, I almost gave up till I saw her blonde hair blow to the side as a gust of wind almost blows me over. I sprint as fast I can trying to catch her, I finally catch her another block or so down, and grab her hand as she turns to me, I can see the pain in her eyes and the memories that she has gone through. Her make-up running down her face, she looks me dead in the eyes and screams all you think of me now is a sick girl who is too drunk to keep her mouth shut. The woman before me, I knew was already so strong, literally battled for her life. The pain in her eyes, the shakiness in her voice, nobody can fake that amount of pain. I felt all her pain explode around us. This woman was clearly broken, and there is nothing I can do to help her. So, instead I pulled her in and called a cab for us to go home. I lied there with her until she was fast asleep, staring at the ceiling, going over what had all happened in the past week, finally leaving and sleeping on the couch. When I awoke I decided to make us a great breakfast, hoping maybe she wouldn't remember last night, hoping I would forget. Hoping I wouldn't change the way I look at her, but it did, is that so wrong? I feel weak compared to her, maybe like she needs to be pampered, is this why I am making her breakfast, what is all going to change now that I know she is a survivor. She then walks out the room, still gorgeous as ever, but I need to say something before things get awkward, or will that just make things more awkward?  I'll just ask her how she slept, not too awkward right? RIGHT? Her reaction was definitely not the best, but who could blame her. After the breakfast we just lay down again and doze off, but when I wake up she is no where in the hotel, she must've gone back out, but is that really for the best? I decide to text Luca to see if he has seen her. He texted back saying he saw her earlier at a park, and he will go catch up. Knowing she is safe I decided to go to the gym and work-out for a while. I wish I could say something, anything was wrong, but I can not get her out of mind, Julie is stuck, she can be glued to my brain. How can someone go through that? I have to be able to push it aside while it's time to go meet everyone to finally see Lilian at dinner. As I walk in I see all the guys together, and Lilian and Julie together. I give her a small sincere smile, but I don’t think she is paying attention to me. Why would she anyway? She sees me every time she wakes up, goes to bed, goes to the kitchen literally anywhere, she will see me. Is she getting tired of me? I need to be able to push these thoughts away at least for tonight, this is Liam and Lilian’s night. As the girls come back over we all sit down and finally order food. Everyone said their goodbyes, as we all headed home in different directions.