They saw.
They watched.
They came off as harmless
So I smiled.
Repeatedly, I smiled.
I was used,harshly by the world.
They broke me.
And that's when the anxiety kicked in.
I harmed my soul.
I harmed my mind.
I harmed my heart.
I harmed everyone around me.
Yet I still claimed I am "happy".
Happy.. those words mocked me.
Everything around me seemed to be, so I got envious.
The world locked me in with it's traps.
And that was that.
I lost.
I was shot down.
Everyone had a Happy place.
While I just Sat in the darkness.
My lover now gone and unreachable.
Him,he took my Happiness away.
He did more than lead me astray.
He destroyed me.
And foolish me, I let him.
I lay in a meadow of sadness.
While everyone frolic and smile amongst me.
I tried so hard to be like them.
But constantly,
Shot down.
And I gave up.
I gave up on my happiness.
Maybe some of us aren't cut out for the 'Happy' thing.
Ok maybe that wasn't all that good.I don't know.But feedback? ;) x
