Billie Eilish imagines

weight

Tw: Eating disorders
Fluffy/sad type beat
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Y/n
I step oom the scale and watch as it read '150lbs' "fuck." A soft mutter makes its way from my mouth. I turn to the bathroom mirror and observe my body. I point out to myself where i have gained the extra pounds. 'Skipping a couple meals might help.' I thought to myself. Its late at night anyway and i haven't ate. Billie won't notice she's too busy.
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Days turned into weeks. Weeks turned into months. The now small y/s/c girl has lost an extreme amount of weight. Her girlfriend had quickly noticed that she wasn't eating. Yet, the green haired girl didn't know how to confront her. Billie didn't want to hurt y/ns feelings. She had noticed much earlier but y/n just told her it was a diet. What y/n didn't know is that she was hurting Billie too.
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Billie
I had come home early to surprise y/n. She hasn't been feeling too well lately. I make my way into our bedroom as i see the dim light coming from our bathroom. I set down the bouquet of sunflowers and quietly make my way to the bathroom. What i see stunned me.

My baby, so skinny and frail. Her spine and ribcage practically poking out of her skin. I didn't notice i was crying until i felt the tears on my face. I let out a faint "baby?" as i fully open the door. A yelp came from y/n as she look at me terrified.
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Y/n
As soon as i make eye contact with Billie i immediately break into tears. "Im so sorry Bil, i didn't mean for it to get this bad." I choke out my words as my girlfriend holds me firmly but gently. "Im sorry, im sorry, im so fucking sorry." I wail as she slowly brings us to our bed. "Shh princess this isn't your fault. I promise." I can hear her voice crack as she tries to be strong.

After a good hour of crying Billie asks me "Angel, how long have you been doing this?" I try not to cry as i answer her. "F-four m-months." I reply, my throat sore from crying so hard.

Billie pulls me closer to her. Soft sobs could be heard. "Im so sorry i haven't been here for you y/n." She whispers softly. "Its okay" i mumble sleepily into her chest.
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Both girls ended up falling asleep ib each other's arms.
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Billie
I open my eyes to y/n very softly playing with my hair. I admire her delicate facial features and smile. "Good morning my love." I say, she responds with "good morning Bils."
We stare at each other smiling like idiots. I rest my thumb on her cheek "Baby?" I ask which she replies to with a soft hum. "Do you think you can try and eat something small today?" I ask, her smile fades and she gives me a nervous look. "I can try." She whispered.

I reach into the fridge and i grab the bag of purple grapes. They're her favorite thing so there's a better chance of her eating them. I turn to y/n who is sitting on the island. "You wanna try some grapes baby?" She nods softly. I get some grapes and rinse them in a bowl. "Would you like me to do it first, then you try?" I ask softly making eye contact. "Yes please." She answered, i take the first grape amd eat it. "Its your turn princess." I tell her. She takes a grape and starts chewing it.
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Y/n
I started to panic as i couldn't swallow the small fruit. I spit it into a near by napkin. "I can't, i-i panicked. I can't do it Bil." I say in tears. Billie looks her ocean blue eyes into my y/c eyes. "Baby girl, you got this. You're so strong. Please just one grape and if you really can't we can try again later okay?" I simply nod and wipe my tears. I take another grape and chew it, i get scared but i know Billie is right here with me. I finally swallow the tiny fruit. "YOU DID IT BABY! IM SO PROUD OF YOU!" Billie says kissing me, i kiss back and smile into the kiss. Im so glad i have someone like her. It only gets better from here.
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WOW OKAY. This was a hard one to write for me. I've been really struggling with my eating and weight lately and i don't really have anyone to help me get better so i wrote this. please vote no one reads my story anymore. So here's an update. Hope you're doing well lovelies

Yours truly- El❤