I'm not really sure what happened after that, I think I supressed my memories after the "incident" as my mother likes to call it.
The next day, the only advice my mother gave me was to be a good and respectable pack member to Royal and all other pack members with important status.
What other advice could she give me?
We weren't exactly loaded with cash to up and leave to travel to another pack across the country.
I was marked and not in a good way. The future Alpha of our pack branded me an outcast with his claws. Branded to be anyone's but his. The thought hurt my heart. Be good and respectable. That's all I can be from now on.
I slowly tried to distance myself from the Hale family. However, Luna Sonya wouldnt let that happen. She would come and look for me to help her out around the pack. My guess is that she felt guilty for what her son did.
Over the next 4 years I was still running errands for pack members, I was still visiting with the elders, and I was still checking up on all newborns and their mothers.
But this time my intentions were different. I only hoped that now the current Luna would at least get me a bit of protection, I no longer dreamed of being the next Luna. How could I when Royal terrified me. His presence brought me fear, not joy like it use to. My whole body would freeze up and I would hold my breath.
I was good, I avoided at all cost to stand out, although it was hard when you have 4 claw marks running across the side of your face. A deep side part helps though. For the most part I think people pitied me.
I was respectable, I bowed and kept a healthy distance to every pack member with status, especial Royal.
I became a pitied yet a kind wolf among my pack.
On my 16th birthday, I met my wolf. His name was Renee.
For us werefolk, We meet our wolves at 16 and slowly form bonds with them. We take on habits and physical growth to best fit our wolf.
We are to be simply vessels for our wolves. At 17 if our wolves accept us, then we offically bond and then we could find a soul mate the goddess has paired you both with.
There are differnt bonds between us and our wolves. Male vessels to male wolves and female vessels to female wolves bonds are the most common. On occasion a female wolf will bond with a male vessel or a male wolf will bond with a female vessel. We have no choice in the matter, all is decided by the moongoddess, and we dont question her decisions. We accept her choices.
Though it seemed like the less common pairs were becoming rare. Meaning whoever my wolfs bond would either be a male to a female wolf which was extremly rare or a female to female wolf which would be the most likely. Whoever the person was I would gladly accept them as my lifelong partner.
My birthday party was small, though most of us are supposed to have a grand and festive party to celebrate meeting our wolf and to have our first shift.
Though it was just a party of five, my mother, Luna Sonya and myself and my two best friends.
My wolf only introduced himself to me and kept quiet afterwards. I soon learned this was just his personality.
I shifted into a lean yet strong tan wolf. He was beautiful.
Though I was scared he wouldn't shift because of my facial deformity I'm glad he did. There was still hope in finding some type of mate in the future.
Over the next year I tried to boost my own physical appearance, even if I was to scared to go near the pack house I trained on my own. I trained everyday to try to appeal to my wolf. With running, yoga, weight lifting, just to show him that I was strong. Though it wasnt successful in how I wanted,with his bond I was only able to become slim not much muscle, I guess that was just the type of wolf he was.
After school most days I would meet Luna Sonya to help her out then I would head home. Every weekend you could find me at my home.
After being outcasted by Royal, I quickly lost most of my friends. I still was able to keep a couple though. But for the rest of them, Who wants to be associated with a pest to the future Alpha?
I had spent what seems like all my youth studying. I was on track to graduate a year early and I did. I didn't walk at graduation, who would cheer for me anyway. I had hopes of being an early education teacher. I figure if my wolf mate doesnt accept me then aren't I essentially just a normal human and normal humans need normal jobs. Most pack members got their education paid for by the Alpha Ben, but asking him meant I would have to go to the pack House and I knew I wouldn't be wanted there.
I had gotten better at styling my hair. Though there was never anywhere to go to so after every hair style I would brush the style out. Eventually I just decided to chop it off.
My makeup skills were better too. Though it was hard to blend into the scar on my face. I could only ever do my makeup in my room and wash it out afterwards.
My height now would have fit his perfectly, but I could now never get close too even compare. So I could only wonder.
My curves were delicate, I grew up to be very slim. I had no idea if he likes slim delicate girls. So I could only wonder.
My neck I know would forever be bare. So I could only wonder. Wondering kept me safe I liked safe.
