All the Mistakes We Ever Made

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"Song"

All the mistakes we ever made

Hinata

"No ones gonna love you like I do.
No ones gonna care like I do.
And I can feel it in the way that you breathe.
I know you dream of her while you sleep next to me."

I couldn't, no I wouldn't ever stop loving you since you were my one and only love. I know that even though your married to me you don't love me. Maybe you did at first but now I can tell in the way you try to avoid my affections. I tried to ignore it but the pain just kept coming back. That night, that one night that changed everything, it broke my heart, tore it in two, ripped it to shreds, my heart no longer existed but no one knew that. He had made me cold and heartless. It was his fault because on that one night I heard him mumble his first loves name, Sakura. I would never win his love it would always be hers and for the first time I had felt jealousy because I knew there was nothing I could do. Eventually the pain had consumed me.

"I can't stop drinking about you.
I gotta numb the pain.
I can't stop drinking about you.
Without you I ain't the same.
So pour a shot in my glass and I'll forget forever!
So pour a shot in my glass cause it makes everything better!"

You, Naruto, had drove me to drinking. During the day I was the perfect wife but at night when you weren't there I would drink until I no longer could move. I would cry for hours on end. But I had managed to hide the hangovers relatively well. You never suspected a thing. I drank so the pain would disappear and I could forget. I drank so I would lose all my worries. I drank so no one else would exist just me and my stupid, delirious, and random thoughts not ever involving you...or her.

"Darlin tell me what more can I do?
Don't you know that I was meant for you?
You say I feel like heaven on earth,
But You'd never know what heaven was if it wasn't for... her."

What is left for me to do? I have tried and failed countless times just for you but you don't care. Not one bit. You only care for her. A few months after the sleep talking incident I saw something that made me die on the inside. If you hadn't broken my heart when you mumbled her name you definitely did now. You, Naruto, kissed her, Sakura. She didn't stop you either. I slowly backed away from my place in the street and left. The day after you told me I was beautiful. I thought 'Liar, you probably don't know what true beauty is until you see her.'

"I can't stop drinking about you.
I gotta numb the pain.
I can't stop drinking about you.
Without you I ain't the same.
So pour a shot in my glass and I'll forget forever!
So pour a shot in my glass cause it makes everything better!

I can't stop drinking about you.
I can't stop drinking about you."

The drinking had never stopped I tried to quit once but the pain was so overwhelming. It had hit me like a ton of bricks. I hated this overwhelming agony so I continued to drink until all my emotions were dulled.

"No ones gonna love you like I do."

She will never love you as much as I do. She's just using you to get to Sasuke. Your to blind in love to notice. One day I saw her still trying to get with Sasuke but I know you won't believe what I would've said so just ask him yourself.

"I can't stop drinking about you.
I can't stop drinking about you.

So pour a shot in my glass and I'll forget forever!
So pour a shot in my glass cause it makes everything better!"

No ones gonna love you like I do.

I am the only one that will ever truly give a damn about you, Naruto Uzumaki, because I will never stop loving you. I promise you this though, I will get over you.

Naruto Uzumaki, I Hinata Hyūga, am leaving. I hope you have a happy life with her.
Sincerely,
Hinata Hyuga

Naruto

"I know I'm not one to break promises,
I don't want to hurt you but I need to breathe.
At the end of it all, you're still my best friend,
But there's something inside that I need to release.
Which way is right, which way is wrong,
How do I say that I need to move on?
You know we're heading separate ways."

I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you. And I know I never go back on my promises but this is one of the few I just can't keep. I'm sorry; maybe we can stay friends? Hinata, you won't hate me right? You're to kind to do that, right? What should I do, I'm so lost and confused! One thing I do know is that I can't continue this. It has to end. Our marriage is over.

"And it feels like I am just too close to love you,
There's nothing I can really say.
I can lie no more, I can hide no more,
Got to be true to myself.
And it feels like I am just too close to love you,
So I'll be on my way."

I can't do this. I'm hurting you I know it. I can feel it. I reject you on a daily basis yet you still smile at me, that broken smile. It makes me feel so guilty. I just don't love you anymore. Sakura will always have my heart.

"You've given me more than I can return,
Yet there's also much that you deserve.
There's nothing to say, nothing to do.
I've nothing to give,
I must live without you.
You know we're heading separate ways."

You've always supported me when I could not stand. You helped me in the exams. You helped me in the war. You helped me at my lowest points. You care for me like no one else did. Supported me since the beginning. I don't deserve you and I never will.

"And it feels like I am just too close to love you,
There's nothing I can really say.
I can lie no more, I can hide no more,
Got to be true to myself.
And it feels like I am just too close to love you,
So I'll be on my way.

So I'll be on my way."

I'm with Sakura. I'm cheating on you. Do you know? Have you figured it out. I might leave you soon but I don't think I can do that to your oh so fragile and gentle heart. I imagine you saying that your happy for me when I tell you and not getting into a rage like I know most girls would have. Your not most girls though.

"So I'll be on my way.
So I'll be on my way."

When I got to tell you I'm leaving you I find a note instead. You left me before I left you and for some reason it just hurts so much.
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