lauren oneshots and imagines

oblivious pt. 1

It was the fifth night of crying myself to sleep and I still haven't gotten over the fact that my childhood bestfriend, Lauren, was moving away 5,000 miles.

She was amazing. We both were always there for eachother, roasting eachother, making eachother laugh, going to sonic together while blasting the best bops, giving eachother the best advice, Lauren was the one thing holding me together. And, during those years, I may or may not have caught feelings for her. My one problem was she had no idea.

Me and Lauren told eachother everything, but one thing I never told her was that I was bi, and that I had the BIGGEST crush on her.
I was so afraid that she wouldn't except me, because she grew up as a practicing Catholic and was very passionate about it. So I never really thought of telling her.

But, this really is my last moment to. She is leaving in a couple days and I would possibly never see her again. This huge secret is aching inside of me and killing me each day further keeping it a secret. But I don't have any ideas on how to bring it up, or tell her. This can totally ruin our friendship, and that's the last thing I want. She would never like me back, if anything, Lauren was the straightest girl I've ever met. There were no chances she was gay or bi.

I kept doubting everything over and over until I start getting a headache. I decide to leave the idea alone for now.

A day before Lauren is leaving I text her to come over.

My favorite 🧡
You: Hey, care to come over today? I got all of our favorite snacks. I think we should talk.

I thought you needed the mood to be good so she won't be in a bad mood, so I decided to get all of her favorite things.

My favorite 🧡: omg yess!! It's been a little while since we last hung out, when can I come?

You: uh like an hour, if that's okay.

My favorite 🧡: Okay, see you there :)

I put down my phone and do a huge sigh. I pick out a good outfit to impress her, but still a chill one, and hop in the shower. I blow-dry my hair and do my makeup a little extra good. Then it was fifteen minutes before she was gonna come.

My phone buzzes.

My favorite 🧡: Hey, sorry if it's a little too early, I got so excited so I'm on my way now

You: That's okay

You didn't realize how unprepared you were until you actually processed the moment. After 2 years of liking her, this is the day you tell her.

After some time overthinking, I hear the doorbell ring and quickly jump up and answer it. There Lauren was, looking so angelic, with a dark blue hoodie and some black ripped jeans.

She runs up to me and hugs me tightly. Something about her hugs were so amazing, how she wrapped her arms around my neck, leaving me to wrap my arms around her waist, pulling us both in tight, causing a ton of butterflies in my stomach. She lets go but holds on to your arms for a second. "Ahhhh!! Heyy!!" She says with the cutest smile. "Hii! How have you been?" I ask. "Pretty good, I missed you of course. I've also been working on my new song. You wanna hear it?" "Of course. I bet it's going to be bomb just like literally every other song you've made." She smiles. "Yay! Okay, come on, let's sit down. She says. We sat down on the couch and she pulls out her phone and goes to the track she is working on.
She shows me a clip and shuts off her phone. "You only get to see a clip." She giggls quietly out of excitement for the song and I smile because I love seeing her happy.

"Imma grab some soda out of the fridge." Lauren says. As she gets up, she takes her hoodie off and I try to keep my focus on something else but it was hard to because her taking her hoodie off is just so hot. She looks over and sees that I was staring and I quickly look back, blushing. That was embarrassing.

We binge watched a few shows and ate snacks, and just laughed for no reason like we always did. I didn't want to ruin the fun we were having by bringing up the topic so I stayed quiet, doubting if I should tell her at all. Then, after the last season of our show was finished and the room was quiet, Lauren, still staring at the wall asks me about the text I sent earlier.

"Hey, I remember in the text you sent me earlier, you said we needed to talk?" My eyes widen. Gosh, I hate it when she pays so close attention to details. "Yeah..about that.." I stay quiet. "Y/N, you know you can tell me anything. You have always told me everything." Little does she know I haven't. "Okay. Lauren? I'm just gonna be honest with you. Over the years I've been keeping a huge secret from you, and I've never thought to tell you because I was scared it was gonna ruin our friendship. But now that you're leaving tomorrow and it'll be a while till we see eachother again, I thought I'd tell you."
"What is it Y/N?" I sigh. "I'm bi. I like boys and girls." I said."W-" I cut her off. "There's more. For the past 2 years, I've had a crush on you. Like a huge crush. And I know that's so weird and uncomfortable for you since you only think of me as a bestfriend and want it to stay that way but I had to tell you because keeping it a secret was killing me in the inside." "Y/N-" "I'm so sorry Lauren. I know this isn't what you expected or wanted. I totally understand if you don't want to be friends anymore." My voice gets hoarse. Tears start flowing down my face. I finally look over at her to see her in total shock, and a tear starts falling down her face, slowly. I quickly look away and she tries to speak but she can't. I put my hands over my face to hide the emotions I'm about to let out. "Wait, what?" She says. I already know where this is going. She looks down and I start feeling so ashamed of myself. After a long period of silence she gets up and mumbles "Sorry," and quickly grabs her stuff, and runs out the door. I don't even try to stop her because I know it's no use.

okay so this was more like a story than a oneshot/imagine so whatever, but yes there will be a part two up in like 15 minutes once i'm done writing the story lol!!