Anime One-shots

vent sorry

it's just something I need to get out

So I was in class and my teacher was like "so let's say something if you could change you would do it " something like that
(The teacher also said if we didn't want to share with the class we could just write in our notebooks rip it and then give it to her )

My friend was pretty darn depressive about it she was like "I would stop the pain" and like that stuff
(I'm not gonna write everything because it's personal)

I wanted to put "gender" on mine but what if the teacher told my parents
My mom is chill but my dad I don't know how would it go

But I really wanted to do it I first thought about actually saying to the class so they would stop misgendering me and finally being called they or he...
...But I couldn't
Just thinking about, not even telling the class, just giving the paper, I almost had a panic attack
But I really wanted to give it to her maybe have a conversation and maybe she would tell the class to call me a he or they... But I was so nervous I just wrote the paper and then erased it immediately

And then this was in a day I don't know why but if someone called me a she my body would shiver, it was the worst day and my dysphoria was hitting hard(like pronouns dysphoria, idk if that exists but it felt so wrong).
It hurts so much

Thanks for reading my vent 😕