Melancholy Yeri Book:2 (Discontinued)

Chapter 3

I left them all to suffer alone without anyone leading them. So I couldn't call the group mine.

I wanted to meet Yeri. But I promised my parents too. I asked Wendy, as she was the cool minded one, to let me see Yeri even just for some moments. They both stopped eating and looked straight into my eyes. I had tears in my eyes because of all the memories. I tried not to show but when they looked at me the tears started streaming down my face. There wasn't a single voice out of my mouth. They were shocked. I laughed embarrassed while tears still streamed down my face. I said "I'm sorry. I must be looking crazy. I don't know why I'm crying. What's wrong with me?" And I started crying more and I excused myself for the bathroom. I thought to myself that I shouldn't be like this even if I'm not the part of the group. I'm still the eldest. Right? I am the eldest here. Right? They still think of me as the eldest. Right? And that was the point I couldn't control my tears. I went into the cubicle and sat there for like 10 mins. Came out and washed my face and went back outside. I looked to my table. They were still there.
They were still there but I still left them here. I didnt wait for anyone. I didnt think they'd need me. Or my help. I left them when they needed me the most. I abandoned them. I shook myself out of my thoughts and went back to the seat. I apologized and Joy said "You don't need to apologize. Unnie. I know its hard and I can't say that it'll get better now or in the near future but I can assure you that I'm with you and that I will always be with you. And I know that you had your own reasons to go when you left and I trust you. And I promise you this too that if you want us to go back to the way it was in the past, we will be like that, be like our old selves, be the one you can lean on and if we need someone to lean on we will come to you."

When Joy completed her sentence I was frozen because of her trust in me. I thought they wouldn't want to talk about that stuff.

I replied with tears in my eyes. "Thankyou so much. I know it was hard on you and it still is and I know you can be angry at me and that you have every right to be angry and the way Seulgi is with me is the treatment I deserve. And I am so thankful to both of you for treating me like a friend even after what I did. I don't have any excuse about leaving. Study was just an excuse. And I'm extremely sorry for leaving. And if you want to lean on someone I'm here right by your side. I know I'm a mess right now but I'll be better in no time."
Joy and Wendy came to my side and both of them hugged from both sides. I felt so warm in their embrace and my tears fell like there was no tomorrow.

When I got better I paid the bill washed my face and we went back.
On the way back I was thinking about our conversation.