◊ Happiness;
Something that I haven’t felt in years, I do smile, laugh and make jokes.
But when was the last time I was truly happy?
Well, I don’t know. I never did, I tried to count the days down on my fingers but it wasn’t enough.
The only time I can be ‘truly’ happy is when, I’m not sober or just high on whatever shit I take.
Oh how sad reality could be at times.
From a happy 3 year old with lots of hope an ambitions.
To a teenager who’d lost her sanity.
None of us thought that life could be THAT hard.
Bright eyes and a wide smile, to dull eyes and a wide ‘smile’.
Which hurts..
It hurts way too much, it makes me want to tear my heart out.
Makes me prefer being emotionless, heartless, numb.
It simply makes me want to jump of off a cliff.
Everybody thinks i'm happy..
'Bright smile, sad eyes'
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